Tuesday, November 20, 2007

It's Over!!!

YES.....!!! Exam's over!! Yatta! Hooray!!! WooHoo!!!

And what a better way to celebrate it than sleep! (No lar~ in the end went to Midvalley n lepak + celebrate Sean (my coursemate's) birthday...)

After our "great" escapade... (got cheated by eating in this Jap restaurant called Oh Sushi next to Starbucks...cost us a bomb!! Dah la service + food lousy! Pay fer nothin'! Sueh la~ Chillis tutup...)

Oh~ sorry... No photos as no one remembered to bring their cams. Haha! Woi! We just finished our Jurisprudence paper la! What more can you ask for?? Nobody actually slept at all d nite b4!

So everybody was comatosed that nite (real early!) till d next day! I slept at 10pm til 9.30 am d next day! Dats not my normal schedule! Hahaha! I'm a Batman~

Nyways, went to KLCC today... Wanted to go to Canaanland to get my CDs and books. Lepak in Kinokuniya oso....But then i "pokai"...No $$ to buy anything much... Spent everything shopping on clothes...Hahaha! I'm trying to reinvent my wardrobe. Any idea anyone?

Now, the next thing in my "to do" list... Finish up my thesis proposals and not to mention prep for ALSA's International Conference next January!! High expectation, high pressure, high everything! I'm still in d after exam mode so.... a bit lethargic. Hope all my energy would come back real soon! Meeting tomorrow...Huhu...

And I really (desperately) wanna go back to Kuantan!!! Bernard's back. So dat means.... The people of Shalom United are in Kuantan!! Except me.... *Sob* *Sob*

Sure all my best buddies are busy mamaking now without even missing me...Ceh~ Tak guna... Babi!! (Dats actually our special endearment for each other...hahaha! You can only use it on them...)

Adios~ Adios~ I'll start posting all the pictures again when I'm full of energy. Gomennasai ne!

Friday, November 9, 2007

Those Were the Days....




Those were the days when you're still playing with all these toys... haha! And lil' nephew's terrorising d whole house trying to run everybody down with his "car/walker"! Forever trying to run my toes off my feet! And he's acquired a new skill... punching people and his youngest aunty always become the victim... Not easy being the youngest in the family. Even a baby will bully you...




But I do miss the days when I was a babe. No worries, can sleep like mad, great complexion, smooth skin...hahaha! Now I'm jealous of a baby. But a human's gotta grow. That's life. Not an easy journey but someone (no...rather everyone!)'s gotta walk this old, trodden and the dusty dirt road of life.




Enjoy your "child-like-ness" while you can. It's better than therapy. Go play or eat something you haven't ate for ages.





I'm craving for Sugus now....




My First Salad


The first time ever I tossed my very own salad... (d tomatoes tasted horrible! *sour*)
Diet food sucks! tasteless....

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Will I be....Will you?

*Goosebumps*


I was viewing Bern's blog and wow...!

He also posted an MJ video called "Heal the World".

And both videos me and Bern posted moved me to tears.

It surely can't be coincidental.

Is God trying to tell me something?

Is this why I am placed by God in a law school?

Is this some kind of message God has put in my heart?

Compassion for mankind?

Compassion for the world?

Is this one of my callings in life?

To make a change and heal this broken and hurting world?

Will I be a voice for the voiceless?

Will I be present for those who are in need?

Will I be a Christian who's ready to pick up my own cross and follow Jesus?

Will I be....?

And I pray that I will be one.

Even if it's just for something small.

I want to be The One.

To make a change in my world.

To heal the world.

Will you, friends?

Friday, November 2, 2007

Man in the mirror - MJ

It speaks for itself.

Man in The Mirror

This is a song made famous by Micheal Jackson and I realised during his "glorious" days as the King of Pop, he's kinda active in activism, from environmental to human rights. Remember "Heal The World" and the video clip for "Don't care about us"?

So, are you gonna start making a change by looking at the mirror?

Man in The Mirror
I'm gonna make a change, for once in my life
It's gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right...
As I, turn up the collar on my favorite winter coat
This wind is blowin' my mind
I see the kids in the street, with not enough to eat
Who am I, to be blind?
Pretending not to see their needs
A summer's disregard, a broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know'
Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why I want you to know
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
I've been a victim of a selfish kind of love
It's time that I realize
That there are some with no home, not a nickel to loan
Could it be really me, pretending that they're not alone?
A willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart
And a washed-out dream
They follow the pattern of the wind, ya' see
Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways (Better change!)
No message could have been any clearer
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
(Take a look at yourself and then make the change)
(You gotta get it right, while you got the time)
('Cause when you close your heart)
You can't close your... your mind!
(Then you close your... mind!)


Even though this is not a gospel song, but the message is clear.

Not acting on your faith = nothing. (Faith w/o deed is dead, remember?)

The change can be any change in our lives, in our community that really needs it.

Be it on the environment;
Be it on poverty;
Be it on human rights,
Be it your own struggles in life (e.g. addiction and unforgiveness....)

As sung in this powerful song....

"If you wanna make the world (your world!) a better place,
Take a look at yourself and make that change".

You might say, "Hey, it's good you know...the song and all. But I just can't do it!".

If you've already given up...if you don't even take the first step of faith out of the sorry state you are in... If you still remain as who you are and not improve...

That's what I call failure.

Be brave.

There are countless of other peoples out there who are also fighting the same struggle...or maybe worse struggles than you are going through. Know that you are not alone in walking this long and tough journey....

And even if men fail you, know that God is still by your side.

You may not be able to see Him, to touch Him. But His presence is always there. It's only that our hearts are so hardened that we can't feel anymore.

Failure is when you have stop trying, not failure itself.

YARGHHH!!

My dear cousin's currently chowing down this great bowl of salted-fish-mihun-soup from the popular Pudu shop that sells the greatest salted-fish-mihun-soup on planet Earth!

Problem is....I'm fasting now....huhu!

Another great temptation rite in front of my eyes (not to mention nose as well....)

Don't care!! I'm gonna tapau McD's to reward myself after my fast & prayer...Hahaha...Just like wat Joseph Raj said in TSF, it's during times when you're fasting that you'll start to "mengidam"/crave for food that you never crave for all this while....hahaha!! Aper nie??!

I'll make it...by the grace of God! And I know what I'm doing now it's not some sort of competition of trying to impress people with my ability of not to eat for several days and try to break David Blaine's 40 days and nites without food!!

I'm not trying to prove anything here....

But I'm I am making my point here that I will honour my God by going through this time of fast & prayer week, even if it's just 1 meal per day... (You guys know how much I love eating!! 1 meal oso very tempting dy...not to mention now exam period summore!!)

And I know that God will honour me and grant me favour too!

Thank you Jesus!

p.s. McDonald's just came up with a new Cornetto Sundae & McFlurry ice-cream!!! Now got strawberry flavour McFlurry!!! I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Temptation~

Yay! 2 papers down... But got 5 more to go...Huhu....


Was blogging 2 days ago but then my dum-dum comp didn't manage to save it. So there goes all my hard work...Cis!


My nose has been "leaking" ever since exam started. Not exactly flu...think it's the allergy again!! Darn~ Didn't have time to mop my room ever since exam started...My be the dust...Aiyo! And I'm sooooooooo tempted to go and remove my sinus...haha! Find it difficult to handle but my nose comes in handy as a "dust-detector"... not to mention it'll also start to "run" when the temperature changes.


TSF's Fast & Prayer week has started last Sunday. And I'm always soooooooo tempted to take my instant Campbell mushroom soup (creamy, smells goooood....) out of the drawer and cook it!! And it's driving me crazy especially when I'm trying to study!!


Omoshiroi = Funny in Japanese.


It's funny how I have this urge to cook during exams!! And to all my friends who knows who Phua Zi Jin is.... you know this is really starting to get weird because I simply don't cook!! Been whipping salads and also tuna/egg sandwiches.... Not to forget dreaming of cooking up a storm in my kitchen! You name it... I was cooking delicious pasta..... Baking rich and creamy choc cakes....


WHY??!!! Naze??!!!


Brain must be playing tricks with me....especially when I'm fasting.... Especially when I go back to my aunty's house...there's got to be something good on the table... *ArghhRR!!*


The Temptation of Jesus: (Matt 4:2-4)


After fasting for 40 days and 40 nights, he was hungry. (Who wouldn't be??!! Even Jesus was human then...) The tempter (a.k.a. Satan) and said, "If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread." (Jesus could turn water into wine...So turning stones into bread was child's play for Him) Jesus answered,


"It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God'". (Deut. 8:3)"


Bullseye.


What have I learnt from this story?

  1. The Devil's smarter than you. (He can quote Bible verses upside down la~ So if you think you can outwit him on your own strength...forget it...)
  2. Jesus' been there...done that. So if you are struggling with things like fasting (i.e. like me now...), always remember Jesus. Pray dude...pray....

And if you honour God, He'll definitely honour you.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

SOT POTs, anyone?


Spend my Raya holiday in Peacehaven, Genting. Actually, I never had any intention to sign up for iPOTs wan (Professionals of Tomorrow, by FES)...coz I really wanna balik kampung so much but no bus ticket. My brother abandoned my and went back so...here I am...got nothing to do and after being persuaded like mad, ok la...sign up for it.


And wa la~ No Regrets!! (Notice the capital letters??) POTs rocks! I'm serious!! Those who missed it, please sign up for it when it's on again (I dunno when la the next wan...Sorry la...). Met so many "kakis" with the same mind, same vision, same....same....same everything la! Hahaha! And many of us just got to know each other in the Conference itself! It's amazing how God brings people from all walks of life together and *whirr*!! Blends them together to become...SOT POTs! (Students of Today, Professionals of Tomorrow...not complete nutcases k??)



So...what exactly did all the SOT POTs do in the conference?? It's a life changing experience because in this conference, many of us heard our calling as professionals of tomorrow, be it as a teacher, as soldiers in the medical line or as comrades battling in the legal world. Instead of complaining so much about Malaysia, about the corruption, lousy roads, discrimination etc etc... Why not take up the cross and make a change? Instead of thinking of which country to migrate to, why not stay behind and make a change in this country? There's no need to go to the ends of the earth for mission trips. By staying behind and serving the country is a mission itself already!



There were 3 very powerful sessions which were the MIA sessions. Are we Missing In Action? There were Missing Grace, Missing Voice, and Missing Presence. In a country where the minorities cry foul over mistreatment and discrimination, where is the grace of God in the midst of it? And where are the voices that will stand up to speak on behalf of the voiceless? (This is a challenge especially to all lawyers out there)! Are we, Christian professionals, out there to defend the rights of the people and upholding justice? Or are we running away, packing our bags and head towards the greener grass at the other side of the fence? And being Professionals of Tomorrow, are we going to remain missing in our families? Are we going to leave our families behind in pursuit of wealth? Are we going to be there for our spouse and kids? Or do we just dump them in the hands of maids and continue in chasing after our hedonistic idols?



In such conferences, mana boleh lupa things like games?? That's one of the highlights! There were the Ping-Pong Softball, Futsal Kaki 3 and Dodgeball. All super ganas games! Quite a number of people earned nasty bruises, not to mention being skinned alive during the games, due to the tackling and stuff! The guys pulak...aiyo! Goin all our to kill the female race during Dodgeball! What happened to all those "gentleman" stuff???!! Everyone told me the Ping-Pong Softball's the best but I missed the game due to a bad allergic reaction to my blankie!!! Uwahhh!!! Tak aci! But then the rest also not bad la! Lots of screaming and fun! I'm gonna kill Shu for killing me so fast in Dodgeball!!!



There just so much fun, so much of God's presence throughout the whole 5 days and all of us bonded so well with each other that we didn't want to leave during the last day! (Well, at least for me la... I seriously was reluctant to leave my new-found kakis!) And I know it's been a breakthrough conference for me because God showed me His purpose for me in my life...How studying law was not a coincidence but a calling from Him in my life and how i can be of greater service to Malaysia instead of sitting around complaining and criticising....



Hooray for iPOTs and double Hoorays for SOT POTs!!!


Thursday, October 11, 2007

The Most Wanted Persons...

These people have violated my every single rights in life....and yet I simply love them~ Hahaha...I always tell them I wish I could marry all 3 of them because they are my BFFs! (Best Friends Forever!) It's quite unusual (or absolutely not!) that these 3 guys here are my best buddies! They're gonna be my bride's maids (bride's men???) on my wedding day! Hahahaa! I would wanna see the look on their faces! Utter shockness!


Okay, the list below does not, in any way reflect their ranking in my BFF list! All of them are equal in my sight and therefore, no need to argue who's the best...Hahaha...just like what Jesus told his disciples, everyone's the same in the sight of the Father, our dear God in heaven!


Outrageous+ infuriating+ extreme+ nutty+ hilarious+ fun+ comforting+ confidante+ safe+ trust+ etc = *whirrr!!* blend it all together and you'll get.... Phua Zi Jin's Best Buddies and Friends for all eternity! I'll definitely see you guys in heaven too!


Muaks Muaks~ Love you guys... Bernard Khoo Lea Way, Philip Pak Hoi Yip, Clement Cheam Heng Kit...my dear brothers and comrades in Christ!

Best Buddy #1


This guy here's a real notorious BIG man! hahaha! Big but gentle....Loves cooking with all his heart (promised to cook bak kut teh for me dy when he's back here fr NZ!). And why he's one of my best buddies...



  1. He's simply hilarious!!! (He's always the one to cheer me up when i'm down in the pits)
  2. He's the best guy to slap! (He's so nice to slap on d shoulders without fear of breaking any bones unlike Phil and Cle, so skinny and fragile...)
  3. He's a great cook!
  4. He understands girls~ (hahaha....it's a compliment bern!)
  5. He's simply Bernard Khoo!


Best Buddy #2


This guy here~ Forever posing in front of cameras. Plus! He's a real good actor...I'm surprise he didn't clinch the Oscars yet...Hahaha! But why is he one of my best buddies?
  1. He's the place where I'll pour everything out. (Coz he's a great listener!)
  2. He's funny in a weird way. (he's a melancholic guy... I'll always make him go shopping with me or ask him for opinions...but everything's the same to him....everything is good...*sigh* dunno wanna laugh or cry...)
  3. He's a man of God! (I've learnt so much from him and still his anak murid when it comes to the Bible and Old Testament...)
  4. He's simply Philip Pak!

Best Buddy #3


This guy ar~ nocturnal creature...sleeps during the day (as u can see in d pix) and roams d whole Kuantan at nite. So why do you think this guy here's one of my best buddies??
  1. He's my best argument partner. (We're always shouting at each other...gives d other 2 buddies a huge headache!)
  2. He's d best guy to talk to when you're absolutely angry about something. (this wan i oso dunno y...)
  3. He just has d craziest idea in his head. (It's interesting ya know?!)
  4. He's simply Clement Cheam~

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Psalm 121

I lift my eyes to the hills~
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip~
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you~
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm~
he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and for evermore.
I love this psalm as it reassures me of God's love for me and He is always watching over me, protecting me, caring me, loving me...despite of my weaknesses.
He loves me for me.
Jesus loves us for who we are; for what is inside us.
If He were to love us based on our appearances, I guess many of us wouldn't have made the cut.
There may be a lot of pain and suffering in this world,
The injustice which no man could ever offer an explanation.
"Yeah...And where is this so called God when we need him...?"
He hears us....He emphatises with us....He knows....
In fact....He weeps with us.
You may not believe, but this is true~
Until you've tasted what is good and as sweet as honey,
You'll never let it go.
Everyone is the same before God.
It doesn't matter if you're rich or poor,
Young or old,
Educated or uneducated.
God is faithful.
If He, who doesn't even spare His own Son (Jesus),
So that we have redemption through His blood and resurrection,
We can rest assure that He will be watching over us.
Waiting for us to return to Him.
"Follow me!"
I have taken take the leap of faith...of following this man called Jesus.
My Lord, My God, My Saviour,
The King of Kings and Lord of Lords.
To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul;
in you I trust, O my God. (Ps. 25:1)

Monday, August 20, 2007

I Will Lift My Eyes - Bebo Norman

I Will Lift My Eyes

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes...to You
God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me
Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now