On The Edge...

Merdeka... But it wasn't emancipation for me.

Felt trapped in this weary world of mine, perpetually living under mountains of work and stress. I think being in my final year in law school is taking it's toll on me for real this time.

So much expectations and pressure to execute everything in perfection.

I am on the brink on a mental breakdown/meltdown and I hope it won't happened.

There's a sudden urge for me to just break down in tears and to scream out loud, then pack my bags and run off to some place where I do not know anyone and where the phone doesn't work.

I don't want to be contacted. I enjoyed a free life, travelling from places to places, seeing different things, watching the different ways of the world and listen to the stories they have to tell.

I don't want to imagine myself in a suit everyday, running from court room to court room or being confined in the claustrophobic office cubicle, churning paperwork after paperwork. There's just no fulfillment.

What's ahead of me? Can I just let go (do I have the choice and luxury to?) of everything and follow my heart (to explore the world and write of my experiences and journey around the world).

I find it hard to pray these days as my heart has been very heavy, burdened by this world. I can't hear God's voice nowadays, and I'm as dry as the bones written in Ezekiel. I'm in a drought here and it hasn't been raining for months now.

How long is this drought going to last? Will I be able to taste the rain? Will I be able to quench my thirst for the Holy Spirit soon?

How long more....? It's taking it's toll...

Will I be able to hold my fort?

My heart cries out to God. "I looked up to the hills and where does my help come from? My help comes from God..."

スガシカオ コノユビトマレ

Kichigai!

I'm so crazy over Suga Shikao now! I'm so addicted to him that I have to make sure I go online every nite just to go to Youtube to watch his MTV there.

I've posted 2 clips here, Gogo no Pareedo (Afternoon Parade) and Nobody Knows, some of which I personally liked. I liked the fun funky tune of Gogo no Pareedo and I love the guitar arrangements in Nobody Knows. Try watching it dudes~

I'm also trying to hard to get the guitar chords to his softer, strum-friendly songs such as Hachigatsu no Seranade (August Serenade), Natsukage (Summer Shadow) etc etc coz it sounds really good unplugged.

I would sum up Suga Shikao's music as being a blend of rock and funk at the same time. It's really interesting and fun listening to his different tunes.

Naruhodo kichigai desu ne~

Gogo no Parade - Suga Shikao

スガ シカオ/ NOBODY KNOWS PV

by Suga Shikao. Love the beat~

TGI Chaos

Girls nite out.

We've finally managed to (successfully!) plan a ex-classmates gathering (except Pamela...haha) tonight at 1U in TGI Fridays.

The process was...wow...tedious! Lilian was around in KL (visiting her in-laws...haha) so she planned to meet up with us. I didn't know Lydia's back until Lian told me. Sheesh~ It wasn't confirmed until the today.

We've managed to call everyone last minute and got them all to come out to Midvalley. But then Lydia said she preferred 1U but it's so far for me to travel there!! It's like going to Kuantan from UKM!!! Darn~

Initially Lilian was going to fetch me but then she told me later to go there on my own. So i met up with Chong Ngan at KL Sentral then took the train there after switching from KTM then we took a bus to Ikano then we took a cab to 1U....

Exactly!!! And Pamela have to sms me to hurry up. I was really agitated by then as she's working in the building whereas we travelled all the way there just to meet them. How considerate...

Nyways, by the time me and Chong Ngan got there, we were just too hungry to be angry and all i wanna do is eat. That's all. Since the guys chose TGIs, we all ordered from there. I regretted I ordered that stoopid sandwich!! Aiyo~ the bread's as tough as a rock and it wasn't satisfying. I should've went with my guts on the pasta!!

Wasted~

But I was also willing to travel so far partly because i wanted to meet with Lydia as she's got a job with PWC in Birmingham so she'll be working there for 3 years and not come back within that years. So better see her before she chow~

It's was enjoyable to hear the gossips and updates on everyone's life (esp love life...we're girls after all!) and to see each other again after some time. Everyone seemed fine and genki!

Hope we'll have another gathering like this again.

You'll Be In My Heart

International Board

Asian Law Students' Association (ALSA) 2007/2008

I dedicate this lyrics to all my fellow IB officers: Ken, Rani, John, Rocky and Melvin for the good memories and for sticking together through thick and thin throughout our term, serving ALSA.

I will never ever forget this experience and memories in my life. Til' death do us part indeed.

Love you all and dearly missing you guys.

You'll Be In My Heart (by Phil Collins)

Come stop your crying it will be alright

Just take my hand, hold it tight

I will protect you from all around you

I will be here don't you cry

For one so small, you seem so strong

My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm

This bond between us can't be broken

I will be here don't you cry

*You'll be in my heart (2x)

From this day on

Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart

Always

Why can't they understand the way we feel

They just don't trust us what they can't explain

I know we're different but deep inside us

Were not that different at all

*Chorus*

Don't listen to them cause what do they know

We need each other, to have and to hold

They'll see in time, I know
We'll show them together cause...

*Chorus*

Always...

I'll be with you

I'll be there for you always

Always and always

Just look over shoulders... (3x)

I'll be there always