My Endless Pursuit

New Life: Post Uni

2009-07-24T16:13:00.002+08:00

After squandering all of my time and money travelling to Bali and Tokyo, it was time for me to return back to reality, to let me feet touch the ground after floating around for 2 months of fun.

I know, life sucks. However, I beg to differ. I think life is great but work sucks.

Well, allow me to indulge in my travel story-telling for a brief moment. Bali was great when we start to hit the water (and the famous beaches as well, of course!). But then, Bali isn't a place I'll go ga-ga on as I felt our Malaysian islands are so much better and beautiful as compared to Bali (and I honestly think our food rocks!)

But Tokyo....Tokyo is another story altogether. IT WAS A BLAST! I didn't want to come home at all! After going through Japanese alone (in Japanese, I would say, "Jibun de benkyou shimasu), I think I did quite a good job in Tokyo. Surprisingly, I could understand 60-80% of everyone's conversation and I could converse with them as well (even though it was broken Japanese and was rojak-ed with English). I was so proud I could asked for directions, take pictures for people and yet, they all thought I was one of them!! Haha~ it was fun.

Tomodachi wa sugoi!! Saiko desu! They are the best and I love (and missed) them to bits. Yuma and her family were wonderful hosts, my old friends were the best tour guides ever (except Takao, who got us lost several times), my new friends (ToDai boys and Chuo gang)...totemo yasashii to omoshiroii to tanoshii desu! Satsuki and At-chan were the ones who brightened up tiring days, ToDai boys were so chivalrous that I would have married any one of them if they weren't that young, my fellow oldies (Yuma, Takao, Rocky, Daisuke, ChuChu etc etc), it was nice to see you guys again.

But now....*sigh* now.... oshigoto wo sugoi taihen desu yo! Chambering life is one that is equivalent of a dog's. Nothing wonderful. Verbal abuses almost every day, work by the tons, everything has to be fast... In my opinion, it's the stress and the pressure that makes us age faster and kills us faster at the same time. But I love the times when us FUUs gather in some makan place to chill and gossip about our lives as chambies and the abuses we have to go through in the process. It was hilarious, eye-opening and consolating at the same time. Group therapy indeed.

Oh well, I miss my uni life a lot. Hanging out with friends, noon naps, ALSA, travelling for free... I miss... freedom.

Back to work now~

Done~

2009-05-08T16:26:00.002+08:00

After my last day of exams on 5/5/09, i'm officially done as an law undergraduate. Somehow, when all of us were camping outside the exam hall memorising all our notes, it struck us that this is going to be the last time we'll ever mug our notes and books like mad.

Somehow, it felt like we just into law school and this is our very 1st exam we're sitting for.

Somehow, the feeling was a mix of happiness and sadness.

It's kind sad for me to leave my university life and getting ready for the working world. There's not so much worry in uni, lots of fun with friends and activities and not forgetting my daily noon naps right after classes. We won't be able to do this anymore.

All of us are preparing for our trips to all parts of the world before heading to work. I'm having a major headache thinking of my options whether to get a JR 7-days pass or not. Should I head down to Kyoto and Osaka? Or just stay put in Tokyo. I have no idea...

I have a lot of packing to do as well, clearing all my stuff and junk in my Kajang apartment. Yabai~ I really hate this part!! there's just to much junk accumulated over the 4 years...Help me!

Somehow, I felt that there's no more purpose or target in life. I used to look forward for the next semester in uni but there's none to look forward to. All of us are not looking forward to chambering. Every day, I just wake up and sit in front of my laptop, chasing after all my left behind dramas. I'm also planning to finish reading all my books (30 odd books?) i bought at the flea book fair but never got the chance to finish any. This is the time indeed.

I wanna keep all my books in my aunty's house but then i've been threatened not to keep so much junk there. Well, what to do...will have to hang on until I move out (again!!) to my own place later.

so, now i'm on my quest to shape up to fit into my swimsuit for Bali and also to get myself super healthy for Japan (not taking any chances with the swine flu around!)

Cheers~

Count Down

2009-04-23T14:56:00.003+08:00

Counting down the days to my graduation (unoffical):

12 Days More....

Fai fai....

Cepat....

Faster....

Hayaku....

Travel Bug

2009-04-14T00:51:00.002+08:00

Within the span of 6 months, I've been travelling a lot, within and out of the country.

There was no escaping the Chinese New Year exodus back home. However, I had to come back to KL again on the 3rd day of CNY to prepare for my ALSA trip to Beijing. So a week after CNY, I flew off to Beijing and spent a wonderful week in the lively city. It's cool to be able to celebrate Chap Goh Mei in China where fireworks (I mean pyrotechs, literally) were being lighted everywhere every single minute. I also found out that fireworks are banned in China except during CNY. So people were taking advantage of the festival to light up the skies~ Plus, it's really cheap. You can get a box of pyrotechs for only RM50!!

After coming back from Beijing, I had to travel to UUM the week after for the National Client Counseling Competition. The bus trip took about 12 hours. Yea, imagine being stuck in a bus for 12 hours and the driver just have to stop so many times in our journey that makes the whole thing seemed forever. Well, accomodation wasn't exactly 5-star. It was my worst nightmare...staying in kolej again!!! Arghhh!! There was a dead cockroach in my room!! Thank God the toilets were ok.... We won the competition and thus, a month to Las Vegas...

The preparation to Las Vegas wasn't anything like a walk in the park. It was hell for sure. To be able to secure funds from the university was more like begging on the roadside of Petaling Street. Somehow, I always wonder why students like us who will be representing the university and been receiving oral blessings and public declarations of glory and pride were not supported financially by the university. Was it all just for show? We had to beg all the way to the Vice Chancellor... ok. Approved. However, there was a tug-of-war between the Faculty and also PPP on who's gonna carry the burden of paying for our flight, accomodation as well as the cost of living. In the end, PPP won the battle by successfully shoving everything down the faculty's throat and depriving us of our food money. How are we gonna survive in Vegas... eat sand everyday?

Despite the roller coaster rides in Malaysia, we managed to fly to Las Vegas on a gruelling 17 hour trip, minus the transits. Took us 4 hours to Taiwan and transited in Taipei for almost 2 hours. Then, another 13 hours to Los Angeles and the transit in LAX to Vegas was almost 6 hours!!! We were so pooped we just slept at the airport while waiting for our connecting flight to LV. Viva Las Vegas.

Spending 10 days in LV was no fun at all. It's TEDIOUS!! Everything was just casino, lights, nice buildings, clubs and sand. The whole strip was built on a piece of desert. That's all. The air was so dry my face literally felt like paper by the 3rd day that even the skin around my eyelids were peeling. No fun...not to mention the moisturiser I brought from home wasn't suitable at all. In the end, I had to us my Bodyshop Body Butter to put on my face. The only thing I really enjoyed was soaking myself in the bathtub, shopping and looking at the scenic nightview of Vegas.

After going around these places, I am so dead tired. The flu I've been anticipating to catch after returning from Bejing finally caught on. However, I am still looking forward for my Bali trip as well as my solo trip to Japan to visit my friends as well as visiting the country that I've always wanted to experience since it's totally different from everyone else, not to forget the challenge of speaking lousy Japanese and not being able to read anything in Japanese at all. It's gonna be a huge challenge.

Shikashi, houtouni ikitai desu yo. Ganbarimasu dakara motto benkyou! Akiramerunai~ I will survive even with my lousy Japanese!

p.s. Hey... I didn't even go for any classes leh... Everything Sdn Bhd~

B***h Fest

2009-03-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad my mock trial's done. It's been weeks of nightmare for all of us and i'm proud to say we're the first group to say "Good Riddance!"

However, this whole mock trial thing brought all the worst of my coursemates. People whom you've always thought to be nice and helpful turn out to be bloody hypocrites and they turn on you to suck your blood dry.

Tips to handle such b*****s:

1. Forget bout making agreements with them. They'll turn around and take a huge bit off yer hand. No point making promises/agreements with people who don't even know how to honour their words. In Canto, this is called "Bei pei, mo chi, ha lau, jin kak!"

2. Expect the unexpected. In order words, just expect tons of s**t being thrown on yer face. Under-handed, dirty tactics etc etc... You name it, they have it.

3. Expect them to go bragging all over the faculty declaring their glory and victory when the truth is, they suck big time in court. Wrong procedures, no ethics, language suck, unprofessional and a public display of outrageous bitchiness... Kalau nak gedik tu, main jauh-jauh... I have no idea why would they wanna brag about their shit character and their even shittier work.

Well, what can I say? I'm so tired of all this nonsense I have no idea how long can my patience run... Those who knows me well enough would know I have a temper of a volcano. Let sleeping dogs lie... No need to take stones and continuously pelt that fella. Once you've provoke it long enough, good luck. You've awaken a monster.

Last but not least, before you go around bitching about others and declaring to the whole world about your so-called greatness, go look at yourself in the mirror and tell me what do you see.

I bet it's gonna be lots of shit on it.

Road Woes

2009-03-14T22:58:00.002+08:00

Any motorcyclist reading this blog? If yes, then welcome to my world. I am so frustrated that I feel like forming a "I Hate Potholes" campaign/club just to get my message across to JKR (where is Samy Vellu when you need someone to blame for the lousy road?!). Maybe I could form another rally just like those people who were marching to Istana Negara last Saturday to protest on teaching Math & Science in English (6 years too late, i think... and whatever is wrong with learning them in English?)

Well, I think I have better cause to go marching around the palace and also the whole of KL and lots of other people will be willing (and happy!) to join me. Why?

Have you notice the abominable road conditions in KL recently? Especially when it rains like now. It's horrible. Potholes appear everywhere. It's as if we were hit by cluster bombs. It's not just small holes, it's big enough to kill an innocent motorcyclist who is trying to make it home after a long day out in the crazy city.

Last year, a day after I came back from Australia after spending 2 enjoyable months in Tasmania, I took my beloved red scooter out for a ride when i suddenly started drizzling. Better head home to my aunt's house then but what do you know? On the way home, I went into a pothole covered with rain water and voila~ almost got myself killed.

I admit it. I was scooting at 80kph then but that is the normal speed we go on highways. But, for unwary motorcyclist like me who did not expect the stretches of road all of KL (especially in and near UKM + Kajang) to have so many holes all around! My tyre was busted and thank God there was a nice Indian uncle who fetch me on his bike to a workshop insteading of kidnapping me!

There have been many cases where motorcyclists like me ended up in the grave or in the hospital just because of all these stupid holes. Where are the people in charge of the maintenance? Why are our roads so bad in the first place?

I demand for a right to life safely under Article 5(1) of the Federal Constitution as well as the right enshrined under the United Nation Declaration of Human Rights.

I demand that the Government do something to protect the lives of its people, we motorcyclists who use the roads every single day of our lives!

I demand to all politicians, do your job! We didn't elect you just to sit and relax in a nice big chair and also to attend so many functions just to get your name up in the newspaper every day!

I demand that all city and town councils to check on the roads to ensure it's not covered with holes and making me go around it as if I'm in some kind of motorcross rally!

I demand that we have roads with better quality and worthy of a country who is going towards the developed status (2020... remember? or is everyone too busy scuffling for power and politicking until its people are ignored and shoved aside?)

Do something people!!

Half Naked? Definition Please...

2009-03-05T23:49:00.003+08:00

I would like to comment on the news pertaining to some UM females who were "half naked", as quoted from our "learned" and "holier-than-thou" MP and Malaysiasiswakini.com proprietors on 4 March 2009.

Why I think that all those who were criticising these girls are pathetic and narrow-minded (as if they're still living in the 13th century, where females have to covered every single inch of their body except the face?):

1. The event's name is UM's 8th College Ladies' Day.

- If the ladies can't even wear what they want without showing any boobs or standing stark naked in the crowd during a Ladies' Day/Nite, I have no idea when we women will be able to do so.

2. Who are we to label people "half-naked"?

- Isn't that equivalent of a slander? What is the exact and precise definition of half-naked by
the way? Every single individual on planet Earth have their very own definition for what is decent and what is not.

Why can't we simply respect the difference in opinions and thoughts? Is this what we call moving forward in life, or just staying at where we are and picking on the tiny little things people do? Isn't that as bad as being a paparazzi? Seriously, if a bare-backed dress is considered half-naked, I guess that's the end of Malaysia's entertainment, fashion and modelling industry.

Maybe they prefer every single female to dress in a jubah every single day of their lives in Malaysia, preferably covering their faces to prevent them from being "tempting" to men. *roll eyes*

3. Blame the Chinese students from China.

- Well, when they can't find any scapegoats, there you have it, Chinese students from China. Somehow, Malaysian society has been stereotyping as "sluts", "wife-stealers" and what-have-you-not. Yes, they are students from Beijing. So what?

They simply have different cultures and mentality. If you don't provide a proper instruction to them in advance, why blame them when they dress in tube-dresses? Just like a Chinese student representative said, it is very normal for non-Muslim girls to dress in evening gowns like that during events and not during classes! Somehow, I don't see this guy getting an erection...

Usually, those who makes the most noise are the guilty ones...

4. Look who's talking

- Another excellent Malay proverb: The heart of a germ they can see from across the river, but the heart of an elephant right in front of their eyes they missed.

This is a classic case of a witch hunt for innocent victims. Instead of pointing fingers on people who wear clothes with lower necklines than you, try focusing on bigger issues such as poverty, literacy and improving your English!

In my opinion, these people should just stay put in this country and not go anywhere because once they step into even our neighbouring countries such as Thailand, they're bound to suffer from heart attack, high-blood pressure and shock. Why? Because everyone dresses like that during events and non-events! Can you stop them?

How about trying to study in Western countries? They throw parties bigger and wilder than ours! Do you choose not to join them and stay in your room every single day? Do you choose to stick to your gang and not see what the world has to offer?

5. What is morally wrong to one is not to another.

- Who is morally wrong? What is morally wrong? It is a very subjective question with no one being able to correctly answer it.

Who are we to condemn one person to hell and thinking we've done and excellent job on behalf of God?

Remember cases where tudung-clad girls were still caught with their pants down, having sex in public areas? What about that? Half-naked? I'm sure it was...

Jesus was upset with the Pharisees precisely because of these traits, picking on the tiny-weeny things and making people observe rules so strictly there's no room for spiritual growth at all.

They have missed the whole point of these rules. If we love God, we will act in obedience to God and His law. No one have to whip anyone like a donkey to make them obey rules.

Remember again: It is with law we are aware of sin and we are tempted to sin. Just like how Philip Yancey put it, "Tell a child not to eat cookies from the cookie jar because dinner will be ready in an hour. The thought of eating cookies wasn't there then but now, it has been awaken and the child is tempted to eat it because he is hungry and tempted, even though he knows it's wrong."

Still half-naked? I suggest that you pack your bags and head straight to the mountains and live there on your own.

Juggling Too Much On My Plate

2009-03-01T22:13:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, I apologize for not updating my blog.

For the past 2 months, things have been very hectic and turbulent for me. As the title of this post suggested, I've been juggling too much on my plate and I think things are starting to fall off it, making me feel worthless and useless.

Fatigue and stress have been my best friends during this period of time. After preparing and going to Beijing, I came back to prepare for my competition (on the night I arrived itself!) I felt it was a joke and I felt I'm being used to get things done, to win things. I started to question whether my friends here in uni are truly genuine or manipulators trying to pry their hands on me for their own interest.

After winning the competition, I felt I should be happy. But my friends told me I don't seem glad that I will be going to Las Vegas end of March for the international round. Indeed... I felt nothing of that sort at all. Winning this competition was nothing as I felt like a puppet being pulled here and there by strings. I am very tired...

A visit to the morgue and forensics department didn't help much either. It was eye-opening and very interesting indeed to see the pathologist cut open a dead woman, just like something experienced only by medic students. However, by the end of the day, when everything had been digested...After looking at tons of gory pictures of murder victims... After witnessing the post mortem in which the person's organs were being emptied and our skin is just like a rubber suit, empty and useless....

You can't help but think if there's more to life. Somehow, looking at all these things, you'll start to lose hope in humanity, as Man can kill another brother for something as simple as a parking lot.

For once in my life, I felt utterly depress to the point of a mental breakdown. I couldn't think, eat, sleep or do anything at all. I was paralysed and numb. Nothing motivated me, not even food. My soul was desperately crying out for help but I heard no answer. I prayed and cried out to God, but all I hear was silence. Is this another dry period for me? Am I back to wandering in the desert again like the Israelites when they escaped from Egypt? Do I look at life like how Solomon did in Ecclesiastes, when everything was meaningless?

I know I can trust Jesus even when I know there's a lot of doubt inside of me. However, the fear I have right now is... How long can my trust in Him remain? Will it fade away in time and I, again, will fall into this deep abyss of depression and hopelessness?

I hope that day will never come. Never~

Scary!

2009-01-14T01:27:00.002+08:00

I got a cool anime from Jason called "Ghost Hunt" and boy!! I was addicted to it right there and then when I watched it!

Most episodes were nerve-wrecking and outright spooky that I find it so much better (and scarier) than Ju-On! WAHH!!! My heart was beating 3x faster and I think my blood pressure just went up the roof watching it!

Haha... if you prefer more "oomph" to it... better watch it with your speakers full-blast and make sure you turn off all your lights. Muahahahahaha~

The plot is very interesting as well which will have you stuck like a glue to the anime and I am very impressed by the fact that legends or historical recordings they imported in this anime/manga were all very accurate, even though the story is fictional. Thus, the whole anime is not only freaky and entertaining, but downright interesting as it tells you about the myths and legends of Japan, as well as some other cultures outside of Japan.

I'm definitely gonna watch it one more time but to think of watching certain episodes again.... *shudder*.........

Giving me goosebumps now.

Yes yes yes....I know. I'm not supposed to scare myself. I should avoid watching and reading all these horror stories coz I'm made in God's image and "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything if excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things!" (Philippians 4:8)

Janne~

Vivid Dream

2009-01-05T18:23:00.003+08:00

I had a dream this afternoon while I was taking a catnap.

And what I saw blew my mind...

I may sound weird but I believe it might be a message from God telling me something.

In the beginning, I dreamt I was in a building, a double-storey house. We're all in the upper floor, about 10 of us there. And we were under attack by demons which were like the ones you see in Resurrection Evil (I know you're laughing now....)

The demons weren't there in the first place, but they turned from humans into demons at random. Even your friends can turn into your worst enemy....

The 10 of us were trying out best to fight them off. There were 2 toddlers in the group too. We were armed with guns but it was hard to fight them off. Some of us were killed in the battle. Then one of us turned... It ran for the toddlers... I shot it but it's still standing... I ran downstairs now that the toddlers are safe.... it chased me... I'm running out of ammunition... All I can do is shout at it...

But a friend came out from behind and shot it with him shotgun. I too, shot it with my remaining bullets. Thank God! It's over.

Then my dream shifted to another scene.

I was walking in a place, I think it was near the seaside. The 3 of us (me, Bern and Cle) were heading for Lok-Lok (haha.... I know... ridiculous rite?). After we finished, we were just about to walk to the car when I saw quite a number of people in this place. It resembles a community hall, but smaller. There was an event going on later and there were microphones.

I suddenly went over, and took hold of the microphone. I stood on a chair... and started preaching! I just had that urge, a voice telling me to go and tell them about Jesus! These people are strangers, I have no idea who they are and where they are from. Some of them are broken inside. One of them has HIV/AIDS. There's a family of Chinese people who are sceptical and hostile. But I continued anyway...

I started with this line... "Shut up and listen to God!"

Wow.... What a start...

I told them that you might not know who Jesus is, you might think the Bible is fake coz it's just a book but God's love is real.

It is stated in the Bible itself. If you don't believe in anything at all, always believe that God's love is real. The Word of God is from Jesus himself, and his love story was written in the book of John (I have no idea why I quoted John).

The guy with HIV/AIDS was sceptical. He said there's no way God will accept him in such condition. I told him about God's mercy and grace. And His wonderful love. The theme of my message was LOVE. I don't know why. But if all else fails, always remember God loves you for who you are.

Some accepted, like the guy with the HIV/AIDS and a young lady in her 20s. Her friends were persuading her to go clubbing, but she chose to stay behind. The Chinese family left without saying anything....

Then I woke up.

Wow.... it felt so real! I never had such dream before!

Rebecca (another long story) told me if I want to see visions and dreams from God, ask Him! It will be freely given to me.

I don't know what is this dream all about but I know in my heart God is telling me something. I can't figure it out yet, but I know... I know...

Last Day!

2008-11-20T05:25:00.002+08:00

Sipping on coffee, listening to Our Lady Peace's "Life" and trying to run d final hurdle!

Can't wait for this stoopid paper 2 finish!! Arghh!!

Can't wait to just dump all my law books in a box, seal it shut and start on my Jane Austens!

Can't wait to sleep and sleep and sleep until I just can't do so anymore!

And I can't wait for the celebration tomorrow in Genting!!

WooHoo!!!

Wait for me, rollercoasters!!

I Wanna Watch!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-17T14:26:00.003+08:00

ARGHH!!!!!!!!

I SO WANNA WATCH THIS MOVIE!!!!

WHY IS IT NOT SHOWING IN MALAYSIA????!!!

PORKE?! NAZE DA YO!!!!!!!!!!

DUN CARE DUN CARE DUN CARE..........!!

p.s. Beware! If you Watch the trailer of Twilight, you'll bound to suffer from OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder)

Note: If you can't resist it, then read the book. Same title by Stephenie Meyer.

Sakit Gigi

2008-11-07T21:30:00.002+08:00

A few days ago I saw a small cavity starting to creep up on one of my molars.

Aiyoh!!! I hate going to the dentist. I always have this thing about them, not some fetish/fatal attraction on them but more like some B-grade horror movies where they'll have this crazy face and a bloody drill in their hand....

*Shudder*

It took me all the courage in the world to get there. Stoopid UKM clinic told me to make appointment and come back in December when they're free. I'd rather pay than wait for another day when my tooth might just fall off and I'll end up in dentures (NOOOO!!!)

Went to a clinic near my aunty's house.

Doc: Yea, that's a cavity. Wait... Got summore. One here...another here... This wan oso must go coz it'll stain ur tooth. Not good to use amalgam (d silver-silver filling).

Me: Aiyo...aiyo...aiyo...

Doc: Wait!! Your wisdom tooth!

Me: Yea, I know... Up there mah...

Doc: That one must come out. I insisit. BUT THEN I'm not forcing you lar... just advising... BUT I INSIST... It's decaying very BADLY...

Me: What??!!! AIYOH!! Ok, my next question is how much does it cost....

Doc: 1 filling RM50 then extraction RM75. So in total RM275. *Kaching*

Me: *Deep breath* Okaaaaaaaaay....... can I think about the wisdom tooth thing?

I was mortally in fear of the extraction. I know it's not good leaving something bad rotting in your mouth but then.... SCARED LA WEI! After being strapped into a dentist chair for 4 years (4 extractions btw) for my braces then 1 wisdom tooth surgery, the thought of removing another wisdom tooth was unbearable.

The filling process was unpleasant as my teeth was sensitive so the sensation was like kena electric... Not nice...

Doc: So....?! Wanna pull it out or not? But then... like I said lar... I INSIST on it...

Me: *After 5 minutes of monotonous debate in my head* OKAY, FINE!! I'LL DO IT!! No pain no gain right? I'll survive....

I know, it sounds comical. I even told the doc I'm a chicken when it comes to this thing. When he was about to stick the needle in:

Me: WAAAAIT!!! WAIT!!! Gimme 1 minute!! *panic*

I was wheezing and coughing coz I couldn't breathe. Too scared... I know it's not as pain as it is in my head, but then when I remove 4 teeth for my braces... The pain.... LIKE HELL!

So, after 30 seconds (sheesh... he didn't even bother giving me another 30 secs), the needle was in. Huhu... so scared. He was trying to pacify me by talking non-stop. Haha...young guy la... so at least we still have something in common. Since he knows I'm a law student, I'll SUE him if anything happens.

And then its OUT!

Just like he said, it was blackish dy. Not a very nice sight and it's nice to see something rotten out of your mouth.

But then after the anaesthetia wore off.... PAIN! Cannot eat, dah la tomorrow my cousin's getting married (just registration lar... but then still got the makan part! Not to forget photo session! my face!)

Moral of the story.... please keep your teeth in check. You wouldn't wanna end up like me with tons of holes inside and or worst! Dentures.....

Sleeping Woes

2008-11-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

Today was the last exam paper for the week. *fuh* Relieve!

However, my housemate was absent for it. Reason: Insomnia.

According to Wikipedia (a student's best friend but the lecturer's bane) insomnia is a sleeping disorder where a person has difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep despite the opportunity.

Waaaait a minute.

Before you jump the gun and start declaring "I have insomnia", better check out all the facts first.

There's 3 categories of insomnia *drumroll*

1. Transient - last from days to weeks caused by changes in sleep environment, sleep timing, stress etc. (Hey! I think i'm in this category!)

2. Acute - inability to sleep well from 3 weeks - 6 months.

3. Chronic - Can last for years. (Warning! Will lead to hallucinations)

For more info, please Google. Hah! Think I would tell you everything?

Anyway, before you start telling your teacher/lecturer/boss that you're unable to function bcoz of insomnia, wouldn't you wanna check out your sleeping pattern first?

I'm guilty of this as I always (it's a necessity!) take noon naps at least 2 hours. Then I'll be in Batman mode at night.

In Canto, it's called "chi gei wan lei sui". Sendiri cari pasal.

How to combate insomnia?!

Have good sleeping hygiene! What the heck is that?

Eg. Avoid staring into computer screen/TV an hour b4 sleep, lighting (if can switch on dim lights instead of flouro lights) and surrounding in room conducive for sleep (not for work), good jazz/instrumental CD (I highly recommend Tony Bennett, Double Take and Peter Grant!), and a good book! (Jane Austen! Must have! and of coz, the Bible, esp Psalm).

Gudnite, sleep tight then! zzzz..........

Exam...Porke?!

2008-11-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

I always always always.............. hate this time of the year. Final exam.

Urgh. My head... My precious sleep... Cannot watch dramas on youtube.

My 2nd last exam in UKM. After May.... MERDEKA!!! (Can't wait!)

Today's paper (Civil Procedure)... thank God! I was praying (nope...more like pleading actually) to God to spare me, to have mercy on me coz I only started studying the night before!
Hellelujah! It wasn't too bad after all~ (at least I know I won't have to stay back another year... and see "her" face again!)

What did I do with my 1-week study leave? Watch Astro, youtube, novels...anything but law... can't take it anymore!

Faster! Wanna grad dy!

Tomorrow, another war. Criminal Procedure. At least can sleep coz starting at 3pm.

But then the day after that, 8.30am paper... Islamic Evidence.

Wish me all the luck in the world and do pray for me~

*Gulp*

Wedding Bells

2008-10-28T01:27:00.005+08:00

Probably our last "kiddy" photo with the "V" we Asians love so much...

Wedding bells tolled as joyous faces filed pass the masjid ground after the "akad nikah".

(Obviously not my wedding...)

Hasnidar's the first gal to be head into married life from 5M (goodness! I/We have always thought she'll be quite late...mana tau the first. Whoever placed their bets.... sudah kalah la~ Bayar, bayar!)

Words alone can't express such joy and excitement in our hearts (sometimes, i think we're more excited as compared to the bride herself coz when I called her on the phone a day before her big day, she was still in 'shopping' mood... haha~ still got time go out shop man~)

Somehow, I also felt like I've lost a friend after the wedding. I wonder why... It just felt like my dear friend's gone somewhere, into another dimension, no longer in our heydays, back when we were still in school doing ridiculous things together (although she's more of the decent gal as compared to me... ^^).

Maybe I'm suffering from the "Peter Pan" syndrome. I don't wanna grow up. I don't wanna lose all those sweet and hilarious memories when we were still crazy bachelorettes, and we don't have to ask/tell our husbands that we're gonna have a late nite reunion somewhere.

But everyone's gotta grow up, sou deshou? Maybe I might still be able to lead a bacholerette life after marriage, but then who knows? Anything can happen.

Alright, alright. Phil and Cle's been complaining bout my blog being long-winded. I rest my case. Do enjoy the pictures~

Nyways, congrats and wishing you a happily-ever-after marriage, dear friend! Thanks for my first ever true Malay wedding experience as well!

A Glimpse of Heaven

2008-10-20T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hallelujah....Hallelujah... The praises to God ringing in my ears as I watched the video of the song again.

And at that moment, I saw a glimpse of heaven in my head. As I see the people in the auditorium singing with passion, hands were lifted up on high for Jesus, the choir echoing together to add sweetness to the melody of heaven...

And I saw the hosts of heaven singing together in unison with them. And to think I will be one of them when I'm back home with Jesus, singing and worshipping Him with all my heart, letting the "Hallelujah" and "Hosanna" continuously ring in my ears...

The Book of Psalm was dedicated to express our innermost emotions, on joy, sorrow, fear, bitterness... and it also speaks of praises and singing. This is the place I want to spend my eternity in.

Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.

Hallelujah, Hallelujah... All glory and praise to the Highest above.

Hallelujah Hillsong

2008-10-19T21:04:00.001+08:00

Do I Really Need to Attend Church?

2008-10-19T00:11:00.002+08:00

Of coz la! No man is an island. It's a wonderful place full of encouragement and optimism, clean and purifying (100x better than AmbiPure...).

Being back in church after a loooooong spell of absence and also after a looooooong spell of spiritual draught feels EXCELLENT!

Witnessing the baptism ceremony in church, especially our veteran folks (one of them 82 years old!) is encouraging and it lifts up your spirit! If he can do it, why not me?!

In a nutshell:

CHURCH is my COLLEGE

HEAVEN is my UNIVERSITY

JESUS is my PRINCIPAL

HOLY SPIRIT is my TEACHER

ANGELS are my CLASSMATES

BIBLE is my SYLLABUS

TRIALS & TEMPTATIONS are EXAMS

winning SOULS to the kingdom of GOD is the EXAM RESULT

receiving a GREAT REWARD from JESUS is the DEGREE i get

PRAISE & WORSHIP is the SLOGAN of our college

JESUS CHRIST IS MY ALL *amen*

Spooks

2008-10-09T02:08:00.002+08:00

Today was an amusing and freaky day for me.

I was firstly diagnosed with probable indigestion and STRESS in PK (Pusat Kesihatan) when i went for a checkup to figure out why I find it hard to breathe 5 days now. The funny thing is, I didn't know I was under stress until the doctor asked me about it. Hmm....

Got all my pills and magnesium to get my acids down in my stomach and to help me not walk around carrying an oxygen tank on my back like scuba divers, got back to class and endured another 3 1/2 hours of torture in Conveyancing. Now I know where all the stress came from... haha~

After all my marathon lectures ended at 9.30pm, we all went out to Kajang Hill to celebrate Josephine's birthday and after 3 years in UKM, I didn't this beautiful place existed until today. I couldn't order anything yummy to eat under the doc's orders and I'm not being demoted to the status of "baby-food" = soft food diet.

No curry, spices, meat and anything hard to digest. Mom's advice: don't eat so much.

I love food~ Help!! But it's a good opportunity for me to lose all the fat as everyone was telling me I've gain weight (even my landlord said so...)

This is where the spooks came in. The China table were busy playing cards on the other end and the ghost-story telling competition was on at the European side. I was stuck in between China and Europe so I got the best of both worlds.

Freaky stories from movies and real-life experiences were shared across the table which gave us the chills and also the excitement within us, making us crave for more of it. It was already midnight and the environment was just right for spooky tales from public universities like UKM. Stories of demon-possessions, hauntings etc etc gave me goosebumps and the punchline came when Mak suddenly told us in a very serious manner to stop it and to pray first before we leave the place.

We all thought it was just an act but he was serious. We didn't believe it in the first place but I couldn't help but felt very disturb so I ejected myself out of Europe and turned to
China.

And then I felt the Holy Spirit prompted me with this question: Is it right for Christians to get involved in such things, to tell horror stories on the forces of darkness and scare the daylights of of everyone? I remembered reading in Ephesians 4:29 in which Paul wrote:

"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."

Paul also continued to advise us in the following chapter:

"Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving." -Ephesians 5:4-

At that moment, I was filled with fear and terror. Would anyone or "thing" pounce on me when I'm sleeping or would anything ambush me from behind out of nowhere?

I smsed Phil once I was back home as I needed to talk to someone about this feeling. He said we are always welcomed to share stories of our lives and testimony but to share stories to instil fear in people which does not help them instead discouraging and scaring them is not right at all. He also said we should not magnify the power/forces of darkness in such stories just to excite the crowd because we are just playing to the Devil's tricks! Non-believers usually can believe strongly in the presence of darkness and of the devil but they find it hard to believe in the power of Light and of the Almighty God.

Therefore, we should not have this acute fear of the power of darkness as we have Jesus with us. And to think that I'm now wearing my CF shirt which says "Yesuslah sumber kekuatanku"... I'm ashamed of myself and my foolishness.

I'm not sure what are your opinions on this matter, whether it is right or not for us Christians to talk of such things in the first place, and to pay to scare ourselves in the cinema (as Kay Jin would say). Probably it's because my faith in Jesus is still not strong enough and I was not properly armoured to defend myself against such things but I do welcome any comments on this as it would help me a lot. Thanks~

"...Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me - put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."

- Philippians 4:8-9 -

Inspiring Songs

2008-09-24T23:03:00.003+08:00

Love these songs by Casting Crowns. Gosh! It's so well and beautifully written!

The lyrics were not pretentious or meant to be crowd-pleasers but they speak of the harsh reality itself, where people tend to avoid or where songwriters would butcher all their depression and hatred into one song, thus forgetting that they were still stepping on solid ground here on Earth.

I won't be posting all the lyrics here but I would like to insert the lyrics for "Does Anybody Hear Her", partly because I am a female and also because the song speaks so much to young people like you and me today, of how easily we can fall into the wrong crowd just because we wanted temporary bliss and pleasure and how we Christians, although we call ourselves one, but we pass judgment in our heart (not to forget eyes) on other people without realising how it can turn that person off towards Christ.

I confess I am one of them and I am ashamed of what I have done. I would like to apologise and ask for forgiveness, to all whom I have snubbed or have been judgmental upon in my life. Lofty glances from lofty people indeed didn't help the world to be reconciled to our Father in heaven.

She is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

She is trying but the canyon's ever widening

In the depths of her cold heart

So she sets out on another misadventure just to find

She's another 2 years older

And she's 3 more steps behind

*Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

Or does anybody even know she's going down today

Under the shadow of our steeple

With all the lost and lonely people

Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

She is yearning for shelter and affection

That she never found at home

She is searching for a hero to ride in

To ride in and save the day

And in walks her prince charming

And he knows just what to say

Momentary lapse of reason

And she gives herself away

* repeat

If judgment looms under every steeple

If lofty glances from lofty people

Can't see past her scarlett letter

And we've never even met her

*repeat

He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

Children of God, we play a very significant role in this broken world, providing the light of hope and love to the lost in this world. Let us not forget Jesus's commission to us and that people need the Lord as much as we need Him.

Does Anybody Hear Her - Casting Crowns

2008-09-24T22:53:00.001+08:00

Who Am I - Casting Crowns

2008-09-24T22:33:00.001+08:00

Hooray...hooray! It's a Hollie, hollie Day!

2008-09-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

Yay!! After going through the last mid sem paper for the week (nope, it's not the end yet. Still have Criminal Procedure Code) and going nuts over Civil Procedure assignment, I can finally take a break to take a breather. It's been a hectic semester this year, and final year is not fun at all. I still remember my 2nd year where I went over to my coursemates' house (everyone in the house were law students. So, you can imagine the commotion we made then...) and played games ranging from mahjong to uno to snap... Screaming our lungs out with the high risks of us being herded back to the balai polis for making such a racket in the quiet and peaceful neighbourhood.

Teresa Kok's been freed after 8-days in VIP detention (6ft by 8ft cell... VIP indeed huh...). Good news indeed. Tomorrow's Bar Council EGM would be fun. Wish I could be there to watch but since I have no locus standi and I'll be going back to my beloved hometown Kuantan (with my monster nephew in toll), all I can do is just wait and then check everything out online.

The wonders of technology.

A holiday's not so much of a holiday for me as well as this would be the time where I can actually sit in the library and try to finish all the various assignments still waiting for me. Darn~ Where is justice in this world?

Anyway, happy holidays to my fellow friends and fight on fellow comrades in our attempts to level our mountains of work.

Sungha Jung Playing Guitar-With or Without You

2008-09-15T00:10:00.001+08:00

This guy is psycho!! (prodigy dude~~)

Justice, Where Art Thou?

2008-09-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

Well, as we speak of justice and freedom post 9/11, 3 rightful citizens of Malaysia were arrested under the draconian preventive law, ISA yesterday before the very noses of other Malaysians. Raja Petra (been in the limelight and police radar for quite some time), Teresa Kok (Seputeh MP) and Tan Hoon Cheng (very innocent Sin Chew reporter) were whisked away ala Hollywood movie and were brought around the country in their black "fleet" of escorts (why would they need so many officers to arrest just 1 individual at a time).

Raja Petra was deemed to be a threat to national security (ermm.... i think all Opposition members, bloggers and journalists are deemed to the a threat now).

Teresa Kok was arrested for inciting hatred towards Muslims for her protest on the azan issue (looks like the person *hint* *Toyo* who threw the stone managed to hide his hand well enough or he had a "Big Daddy" to hide behind when Justice confronts him...)

Tan Hoon Cheng was arrested for reporting on the Chinese Malaysian = Squatters issue by now unpopular Ahmad Ibrahim. She has since been released this evening. (Better be, coz her arrest doesn't seemed to make sense at all! Being arrested for doing the right thing and for doing her job. Reporting on what she and tons of others heard as well as being arrested to "protect" her from possible assassins). What's the world (the Malaysian world) becoming?

As many Malaysians back home, sitting on their cosy couch are expressing their outrage, anger and disbelief over this incident, many parties and groups were already gathering forces to "invade" Bukit Aman's front gate and other places for a mass vigil as well as Bar Council having an EGM on 20/9/08 to discuss the arrests, I will be sitting here in my aunt's place blogging about what I feel along with other young Malaysians who are and might be doing the same thing right this minute.

I would say, this is a very dumb attempt to thwart or slow the Opposition down.

Plain STUPID.

Who on Earth would arrests clearly (in the eyes of the public) an upholder of justice, a hero or a brave soul speaking the truth and this time now? Surely they would have to fire their war strategists this instance for their plain stupidity and for shooting themselves in the foot.

Creating a mess in an already messed-up political scene was a big no-no. Even someone in primary school would know this.

So instead of wasting my time spitting out expletives (which I don't do) and rage on this, I would like to say only this.

Everybody knows what you (Govt) did last time and now.

No need to hide and justice is chasing up behind you.

You can run but you can't hide.

Absolute power corrupts absolutely and God knows.

So, the choice is yours, people.

The truth is out there.

Remembering The Forgotten

2008-09-11T22:42:00.005+08:00

I forgot that today is 11 September 2008. But people also refer to this day as 9/11, a date which might be embedded in some of our memories forever. For those who are too young to remember, it is a day when evil seemed to triumph over good. It is a day where we see the worst in humanity, and also the best in mankind.

I will always remember seeing images of how commercial airliners, Boeings 747 were used as projectiles to fulfill missions in extreme ways... How it were driven into the Towers in NYC, leaving gaping holes staring into the shocked faces of fellow New Yorkers and the world alike.... How it all came crashing down like dominoes in a toy store... How desperate people were feeling then, when fear and panic overcame them... People leaping off hundreds of meters from their office windows when they see no hope left for them to escape from the burning inferno... Chaos and noise, they came hand in hand.

That was not the only horror the world saw on that day: 9/11.

News of another plane found crashed in Pennsylvania, which was on its way to its final destination, only to be thwarted by brave souls onboard the fateful flight then, with the vision of saving more lives than letting it take more victims than it should have.

We salute these heroes who overcame it all and rise up above the fear of death to save lives.

We too, have not forgotten Pentagon, where evil managed to claim many lives too in the name of God. We remember that fateful day indeed.

I was still young then, 16 years old, old enough to understand the whole terror yet still young to imagine and emphatise with all the emotions felt then. I couldn't soak in the pain, anger, shock... the magnitude of it all then. But now, I could register how it must have been then, how horrible this tragedy was, as we were just entering into the 21st century.

I was naive then. How could something like this happen now? It looked and appeared like it was something medieval... like a war.

Yes, war.

This is something I have never experienced before in my life and I thank God every day for peace and security that I have. But what about the others? Even today, Georgia vs Russia? Israel vs Palestine? Darfur? There's too many conflicts to be named today, which saw blood being spilled like streams of river, probably enough to fill the Nile.

"You don't understand." That is what the older people tell me.

Indeed. I do not understand. It is simple enough to know that to end fights, we must stop punching each other. Then talk. Yet, it is difficult to do so. This... I do not understand, and probably will never understand why.

Power. Lust. Greed. Fame. Wealth.

The mechanism of the world and how it works. This is how I see it.

It might robably sounds sardonic but do pardon me as this is how I do see reality.

But the other side of me... the child in me still see the goodness in people, the hope and beauty that all of us are still holding hands and helping each other despite our differences in many aspects. The beauty of us helping each other without any ulterior motives and suspicions behind all the goodwill.

How will it be in the future? Are we wiping away the last piece of hope holding this world together? Are we succumbing to violence and evil along with the inevitable truth that we're destroying ourselves and our children by eroding Earth?

Think about it. There are many out there who lay forgotten, thinking they are just another insignificant string waiting to be blown away by the fabric of time.

But take heart! There are always people out there...

Remembering the forgotten.

Racism: Who Decides Who Are The Supremes?

2008-09-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

The "Ahmad Incident", as most Malaysians (especially with the Chinese Malaysians) would know, was something outrageous and scandalous that it just have to conquer the headlines of every major newspaper for a week now. According to Ahmad, who was turned into a notorious superstar courtesy of this incident (otherwise just another unknown politician from some part of Malaysia), the Malaysian Chinese are just "SQUATTERS" and we do not have any rights whatsoever in this country called Malaysia.

Well, as a Chinese Malaysian, I'm not sure whether to take up my placards and head out to Dataran Merdeka to protest (everyone's favourite past time these days) or to just sit at home, sipping on my coffee as Tony Bennet serenades me with his sexy voice, with the papers in my hand and laugh at Ahmad's foolishness and stupidity.

Our ancestors (both Malay and Chinese) might be rolling in their graves this very minute over the foolish remarks made just to get the 5-minutes of fame as they believed in living together in harmony everyone are like siblings to them. Looked at how many Chinese children being adopted by Malay families and raised as their own and vice versa. Maybe that "someone" who wanted the 5-minutes of fame (he got his fame alrite, although not unlike that of Britney Spears'... famous all for the wrong reason) should go back to school and study his history again. No offence however, I do think our history books in school should undergo a review again as I have no idea what are we feeding our kids these days in history classes...

"There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus" - Galatians 3:28. This is what i believe in. This is how the Christians view it. We are all the same. You cut us with a knife, we still bleed the same red blood. We still feel pain. We still eat and sleep just like everyone else in this world, regardless of our skin colour. Whoever came up with the term white, yellow, black etc., was obviously ignorant. Probably he was uneducated as people in those eras, back when women were only chattels and any dissenters were "the child of the devil", so that is quite a legitimate reason. But what reasons or basis does Ahmad have to have come up with such irresponsible remarks?

The world will remember how Martin Luther King Jr led the march for freedom at the Lincoln Memorial, Washington DC on 28 August 1963. We will remember how bold he was, standing in front of the crowd, which represented the whole of the United States of America, defying the Caucasians and slave owners, the elites and the powerful to deliver one of the best speeches in history, what we know as "I Have A Dream".

"I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of "interposition" and "nullification" - one day, right there in Alabama little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers".

He represented the voiceless and powerless to deliver their pleas to the whole country to forget about the colour of their skin and the different cultures they have. We too, should be thinking the same as well. Who are we to determine whether our race is the supreme one or not? Are we sinking to the ranks of Hitler, who was willing to exterminate the Jews and other minorities so that the Germans (then), whom he believed to be from the Aryans, will be the supreme race on Earth? Are we willing to kill each other just to prove who's the stronger and who's the weaker?

I love this place called Malaysia and its diversity in life and culture. It was not easy for us to reach to such a state, where peace and mutual understanding prevails over us. My playmates from all races in primary school became my close friends in secondary school and we are still close friends, always looking for opportunities to have our "gossip" sessions either in mamaks or other coffee hangouts.

I have also seen and learnt a lot from my stint in the Asian Law Students' Association (ALSA) as well, which consist of 11 Asian countries as members. We do talk on "sensitive" issues but we do not resort to insults and arguments like what we see today. (No pun intended, but most of us are 20 years younger than most Malaysian Parlimentarians...)

Therefore, who are the supremes? The Malays (Hidup Melayu?), the Chinese, the Indians? It is not for us to decide, but for God to decide. Somehow, my gut tells me if God were to speak out, he'll say, " From dust you came and to dust you will return." - Go figure.

(no offence intended. Please don't lock me up in Kamunting...)

System Down...

2008-09-09T22:07:00.002+08:00

I have (and still am) recovering spiritually and now I'm physically ill.

Huhu.... Must be a test! (Haha)

Now I'm struck with a bad case of flu (nose just wouldn't stop running), fever (my body felt like it's on fire), whooping cough (dry and heaty...macam kena TB)....

Walking for me feels like floating now.... head-spinning (kepala pusing-pusing in Indonesian)...

I justgot shushed by my cousin who thinks i'm blowing my nose too loudly like an elephant trumpeting for her herd...

I'm having a quiz tomorrow. Just finished 2 killer papers on Monday.

God help me.

Do pray for my speedy recovery yea.

*really kepala pusing-pusing now*

Goodnight people~

Road to Recovery

2008-09-03T22:59:00.006+08:00

"My flesh and my heart may fail

but God is the strength of my heart

and my portion for ever"

-Psalm 73:26-

Even though the heavy clouds loom over my head, I still see hope peeping at me through the piercing sunlight through the thick blanket of troubles and doubts.

Praise the Lord, O my soul....

On The Edge...

2008-09-01T21:24:00.002+08:00

Merdeka... But it wasn't emancipation for me.

Felt trapped in this weary world of mine, perpetually living under mountains of work and stress. I think being in my final year in law school is taking it's toll on me for real this time.

So much expectations and pressure to execute everything in perfection.

I am on the brink on a mental breakdown/meltdown and I hope it won't happened.

There's a sudden urge for me to just break down in tears and to scream out loud, then pack my bags and run off to some place where I do not know anyone and where the phone doesn't work.

I don't want to be contacted. I enjoyed a free life, travelling from places to places, seeing different things, watching the different ways of the world and listen to the stories they have to tell.

I don't want to imagine myself in a suit everyday, running from court room to court room or being confined in the claustrophobic office cubicle, churning paperwork after paperwork. There's just no fulfillment.

What's ahead of me? Can I just let go (do I have the choice and luxury to?) of everything and follow my heart (to explore the world and write of my experiences and journey around the world).

I find it hard to pray these days as my heart has been very heavy, burdened by this world. I can't hear God's voice nowadays, and I'm as dry as the bones written in Ezekiel. I'm in a drought here and it hasn't been raining for months now.

How long is this drought going to last? Will I be able to taste the rain? Will I be able to quench my thirst for the Holy Spirit soon?

How long more....? It's taking it's toll...

Will I be able to hold my fort?

My heart cries out to God. "I looked up to the hills and where does my help come from? My help comes from God..."

スガシカオ　コノユビトマレ

2008-08-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

Kichigai!

2008-08-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

I'm so crazy over Suga Shikao now! I'm so addicted to him that I have to make sure I go online every nite just to go to Youtube to watch his MTV there.

I've posted 2 clips here, Gogo no Pareedo (Afternoon Parade) and Nobody Knows, some of which I personally liked. I liked the fun funky tune of Gogo no Pareedo and I love the guitar arrangements in Nobody Knows. Try watching it dudes~

I'm also trying to hard to get the guitar chords to his softer, strum-friendly songs such as Hachigatsu no Seranade (August Serenade), Natsukage (Summer Shadow) etc etc coz it sounds really good unplugged.

I would sum up Suga Shikao's music as being a blend of rock and funk at the same time. It's really interesting and fun listening to his different tunes.

Naruhodo kichigai desu ne~

Gogo no Parade - Suga Shikao

2008-08-24T21:59:00.001+08:00

スガシカオ/ NOBODY KNOWS PV

2008-08-23T16:53:00.001+08:00

by Suga Shikao. Love the beat~

TGI Chaos

2008-08-20T02:01:00.002+08:00

Girls nite out.

We've finally managed to (successfully!) plan a ex-classmates gathering (except Pamela...haha) tonight at 1U in TGI Fridays.

The process was...wow...tedious! Lilian was around in KL (visiting her in-laws...haha) so she planned to meet up with us. I didn't know Lydia's back until Lian told me. Sheesh~ It wasn't confirmed until the today.

We've managed to call everyone last minute and got them all to come out to Midvalley. But then Lydia said she preferred 1U but it's so far for me to travel there!! It's like going to Kuantan from UKM!!! Darn~

Initially Lilian was going to fetch me but then she told me later to go there on my own. So i met up with Chong Ngan at KL Sentral then took the train there after switching from KTM then we took a bus to Ikano then we took a cab to 1U....

Exactly!!! And Pamela have to sms me to hurry up. I was really agitated by then as she's working in the building whereas we travelled all the way there just to meet them. How considerate...

Nyways, by the time me and Chong Ngan got there, we were just too hungry to be angry and all i wanna do is eat. That's all. Since the guys chose TGIs, we all ordered from there. I regretted I ordered that stoopid sandwich!! Aiyo~ the bread's as tough as a rock and it wasn't satisfying. I should've went with my guts on the pasta!!

Wasted~

But I was also willing to travel so far partly because i wanted to meet with Lydia as she's got a job with PWC in Birmingham so she'll be working there for 3 years and not come back within that years. So better see her before she chow~

It's was enjoyable to hear the gossips and updates on everyone's life (esp love life...we're girls after all!) and to see each other again after some time. Everyone seemed fine and genki!

Hope we'll have another gathering like this again.

You'll Be In My Heart

2008-08-16T23:12:00.006+08:00

International Board

Asian Law Students' Association (ALSA) 2007/2008

I dedicate this lyrics to all my fellow IB officers: Ken, Rani, John, Rocky and Melvin for the good memories and for sticking together through thick and thin throughout our term, serving ALSA.

I will never ever forget this experience and memories in my life. Til' death do us part indeed.

Love you all and dearly missing you guys.

You'll Be In My Heart (by Phil Collins)

Come stop your crying it will be alright

Just take my hand, hold it tight

I will protect you from all around you

I will be here don't you cry

For one so small, you seem so strong

My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm

This bond between us can't be broken

I will be here don't you cry

*You'll be in my heart (2x)

From this day on

Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart

Always

Why can't they understand the way we feel

They just don't trust us what they can't explain

I know we're different but deep inside us

Were not that different at all

*Chorus*

Don't listen to them cause what do they know

We need each other, to have and to hold

They'll see in time, I know
We'll show them together cause...

*Chorus*

Always...

I'll be with you

I'll be there for you always

Always and always

Just look over shoulders... (3x)

I'll be there always

Dreams & Reality

2008-07-29T23:57:00.003+08:00

How many of us can actually see our dreams materializing? How may of us dreamed dreams and actually see them come true?

I'm not sure statistically but then I guess not many of us could do so...

Tze Lerk, my ex-classmate from secondary school made a very thought provoking remark to me. "So...lawyer huh.... Your dream came true..."

Wow... That statement made me think so hard. It got me stunned for a while. I'd never got time nor allowed myself to even think about this. Maybe i took all these things for granted.

I always wanted to study law and be a lawyer. All my friends knew this, my family knew this. Heck man!! The whole school knew about this! Ask all my former teachers and they'll tell you that i'm obsessed on becoming a lawyer.

"Lawyer" was always in my Top 3 list of profession. Remember those days when we need to fill in the stoopid card during primary and secondary school? It changes all the time... Police la, fireman la, scientist la...But somehow i noticed "lawyer" was always in there, no matter how low i ranked it.

Coincidence? Now that I think about it, I think it's not coincidence. I think this is my calling in life and that God had placed me in this profession for a reason, a good reason of yet i have not discover. And i can't wait to open the next door to this journey of my life, my endless life's pursuit.

Now that I'm taking a walk down memory lane, all the bittersweet memories when i was in school (scary teachers, "evil" friends...), how i screwed my SPM, how hard i worked for my STPM in order to get into law school.... Wow!! It's a miracle!

God's been really good, gracious and merciful to me.

I made it to law school (UKM), i managed to maintain my grades, i managed to get myself a good job prospect, i managed to travel to 3 countries within my 4 years of studies (fully paid!)...

Yes... I saw my dreams came true indeed.

Punked!

2008-07-26T23:41:00.005+08:00

Was punked by ZLW's partners yesterday. What the...

I smsed LG to tell her i'll be visiting them on Friday. She sounded excited in the sms and she's gonna introduce me to their "new, handsome, young partner". Hmm...since when did they have a new partner and me not knowing anything bout it...

So i asked TJ over on MSN bout it. He used to be the chambie in ZLW under WM and he's still in touch with everyone there so he'll have some news bout it.

"What do you mean you don't know who? Cannot be. LG would've told you. What you mean you don't talk about work with her? Liar..."

In the end, i chose to believe him coz he sounded sincere and i have a naive and good heart (muahahaha....^^)

Went straight to 3A, Block B, Megan Avenue II near KLCC. Got into the office and chit chat with CZ and WM. Then LG came down.

"So, want to know our new partner? Hey! Partner! Come, come!"

And voila....

IT WAS TJ!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got punked!!! I was screaming like mad in the office (which is unethical. The office's supposed to be a sombre, serious working space...) and i gave him a nice slap to the arm for such an evil trick on me. I was still in shock!!

I have suspected it could be him, especially when he told me that he has a say in selecting chambering students. Darn!!! DARN!!!!!!

That was one of the best punks that someone pulled on me, other than Cle's Kelantan-Golok trick and Phil's UN trick.

Everybody's manipulating my good and pure, believing heart.

Porke!!!! Doshite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's it. Revenge is coming soon. I might not know how to execute it now, but when i do... You're so dead, TJ.... DEAD.

Sugoi!

2008-07-20T23:54:00.004+08:00

Suga Shikao.

My new fav Jap singer/songwriter.

Check out his songs on youtube.

I was introduced to him by my friends back in Tasmania and boy! He is good!

His music has a blend of everything. Rock, R&B, Pop....even Disco!

Kiseki (Miracle) is my current favourite but there are other good stuff from him as well such as:

Tsuki no Naifu
Natsukage
Yozora no Mukou
Sanagi
Gogo no Parade

There are tons more of good songs by him. Some might seemed familiar to you. That's because they've been made soundtracks on anime "Honey & Clover", "XXXholic" and also Deathnote.

Check it out!

Suga Shikao - Kiseki

2008-07-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

I'm So Dead

2008-07-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's my first CP class under Mona Fandey and I'm so dead coz I'm supposed to mug on 5 cases but I have absolutely 0 idea on what they are about since I've missed 2 classes now. Darn!

Don't care. I'm gonna take my chances and go ahead with it. But hopefully I don't get slaughtered alive in her tutorial tomorrow. *gulp*

Another bad news is our CF = Christian Fellowship known as PERKEB in UKM. We're no longer allowed to hold any meetings within uni grounds coz there's a new law out which bans all forms of religious classes other Islam within UKM. The basis for disallowing us to continue was that our sermons = religious classes. The rest is history.

The devil's working really hard to bring us down in Malaysia but we'll never give up nor let our guard down. Bring it on, Satan! We're ready for you and we'll win this battle coz God the Almighty is with us! Jesus rose up victorious after 3 days of his death. So you think you can bring down this God of ours? No way dude...

I do hope NECF and FES would voice out on our behalf on this issue. Whatever happen to freedom of religion and freedom of expression? It's not as if we are propagating Christianity to the Muslims on UKM grounds!

This is insane! Outrageous!

Totally insensitive to the founders of the Constitution and of the country. I believe they never had thought that one fine day, such Pekeliling would be issued to stop the minorities from practicing what they believe.

I do hope the relevant authorities would realised what would the consequences of their actions be especially in preaching Malaysia is a democratic country when reality speaks otherwise. They too, must always remember all their power comes from God above, and not from their own might nor by elections only.

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom"

(Proverbs 1:7)

A Week Now...

2008-07-19T17:38:00.002+08:00

It's been a week now since i'm back in Malaysia.

All been's well, except i'm always tired and my sinus has come back to haunt me again, after going MIA for almost 2 months in Tassie.

On my 1st day back, i almost got myself killed while riding on my trustee scooter. It was raining, i didn't see a pothole coming, went into it, bounced back up to find my tyre a goner, almost lost control of my scooter and crashed, with the risk of oncoming cars running all over me!

Argh!! I forgot how lousy Malaysian roads are already!

Then there's tons of work to catch up with, with tutorials already starting next week (What!!!) I'm not even ready yet and i guess i'm the blurest person in class now.

Everyone said I put on weight already. *Totemo Kanashi!*

Other than that, i had quite a fun weel, binging on nasi lemak, char kuey teow and durian.

Been sweating as well which is good since i haven't been sweating for 2 months now. But my hands feel like falling off after the badminton game.

Saw Olympians Lee Chong Wei, Hafiz Hashim, Misbun Sidek and a reserve player, Darren Liew (hahaha!! not d goofy Darren Liew @ Yati!). Not bad, not bad... well, everybody was being cooperative by not gawking or running all over them when they were there. Occasionally there were some hardcore fan who were dying for an autograph and a picture.

Alright, back to my reports. Hope all goes well with my Bangkok trip next 2 weeks now since i'm broke and no sponsors.

Please pray for me yea!! hahaha... thanks! to cheh! kamsa hamnida! arigatou!

Sameshi to Tanoshi

2008-07-16T10:33:00.003+08:00

Home sweet Home.

I'm finally back in Malaysia after my 2 month stint in Tasmania.

Sameshi... Ye, i'm missing all my friends and all the beautiful things in Tassie.

I missed the wonderful and fun hostel life, which is very different from Malaysian public uni hostel life. Tanoshi tashkani ne~

I missed practicing Japanese with my Jap & Msian frens there.

I missed the noisy and yucky dining hall food.

I missed walking for hours from UTas down to Sandy Bay and to Hobart.

I missed having to climb up the hill and stairs to John Fisher College and not sweat one bit.

I missed the chilling wind and biting cold weather of Tassie.

I missed the fact that sinus healed on its own in cold and dry Tassie.

But...

I'm happy...tanoshi to ureshi...that i'm back home.

Happy to see my nephew finally walking.

Happy to taste my nasi lemak (with sambal & chilli!!) for breakfast again instead of greasy & creamy food in dining hall.

Happy to ride on my scooter (but almost crashed as i went into a pothole...dang! Malaysian road...)

Happy to be able to wear shorts & t-shirt, not having to put on layers of clothing before stepping out.

Happy to eat Aunty's tasty Chinese food (with much taste) and yummy soup (not those creamy, tasteless soup in Aussie).

Happy to binge on durian yesterday!!! (but missing Tassie's crunchy, juicy & sweet apple).

Sameshi soshite tanoshi tashkani.

Oboteru ne, Tasmania.

Of Maze & Snow

2008-07-08T18:08:00.002+08:00

It's fun being trapped in the world's largest maze and it's scary at the same time as there were some corner that were so dark I felt like i was in one of M.Night Shyamalan's horror movies. Brr... someone or something might just pounce on you in the middle of nowhere. Thank goodness there were 8 of us so we split according to pairs ala Amazing Race style with checkpoints.

Oh yea, forgot to introduce the place. Welcome to Tazmazia in Sheffield, the Town of Murals. It the World's Largest Maze and there's a mini village in the maze called Lower Crackpot, with chieftain Crackpot and his wife, Lady Crackpot as the mayor of the village.

It's a cool place to be but unfortunately it was raining when we were there so it was freezing and muddy at the same time. It would be more fun if the weather's good. There are several mazes in The Great Maze so you're bound to get stuck in all of them as it's really tricky. There's a lavender field as well but since it's winter, everything died so it's only one brown patch.

We all travelled up to Cradle Mt. after that to our cabin in YHA. We got lost (again) on the way there as the place's really "ulu" and the road signs were bad. No help whatsoever. We ended up being stuck near a dam and it was already dark. The road was slippery from the rain and frost so it's really scary. Poor Darren have to get out of the car to navigate the Kia Carnival Jeremy was driving. Haha... he was freaked out when he was sent ot face Mother Nature alone.

We had a nice steamboat for dinner and it's the best thing in the world since it was 0 degrees celcius outside. The cabin kitchen had a traditional fireplace so it really felt like Christmas. All that was missing was the carols and turkey. There was a fat possum waiting outside the door for food but obviously, we're not going to give it to that fat guy! The room was warm and nice so I did slept like a pig throughout the night.

I was greeted with massive snowfalls the next morning and the whole place was just covered in white white snow. It's cold but i still need my shower. Don't care.

I can't really see the snow then i woke up at 5.15am and it's still very dark outside. Only about 7.30am that I managed to see the full effect of the snow. The whole forest was white and it was like in the movie, "The Chronicles of Narnia" and "LOTR"!! (I know Bern wanna diss me with NZ stuff dy...) We took tons of pictures together as well as having massive snowfights. The snow is basically ice but it's soft so you can throw it at someone without having to worry that person will get a serious concussion. But it was too cold and i think my camera can't really take it. So it kaputed when we were hiking around Lake St. Clair which is below Cradle Mt.

It took us 3 hours to finish the whole hike trail and this was when i started to despise the snow. The snow wasn't altogether consistent as in certain parts, it rained then 5 minutes later, it snowed again. FYI, it doesn't snow gently, it was buckets and buckets of snow pouring down on you that you'll be drenched by the end of the day as our body's warm enough to melt it. Cis! It also rain hailstones occasionally. Luckily, it's not the golfball-size hail or else die... But it's painful la, like having lots of small pebbles hitting you.

Overall, i had fun but driving in such extreme weather can be dangerous. The road's really slippery with snow and water (our car got stuck halfway to the lake because of the snow. Thank goodness there's an irritated ranger who might be cursing the stupid Asians to perdition for driving in 3 inches of snow when they're not supposed to) and we travelled back on the same day Masa got into the car crash. Scary~ Lots of time we almost drove into the boulder on the side of the road due to the bad view (our windscreen was fogged up with vapor) and sleets.

Thank God we arrived in Hobart in 1 piece.

Therefore, going to Cradle Mountain in winter is strongly recommended.

Warning!

Beware of balck ice and very slippery (i mean it!) roads.

Cradle Mountain

2008-07-08T17:56:00.008+08:00

Extremely cold!!

Fellow Roadtrippers

Tazmazia in Lower Crackpot

2008-07-08T17:48:00.006+08:00

With Vimalan

Hidoi!

2008-07-05T19:08:00.002+08:00

One of my friends here, Masa was involved in a really bad car accident when he and my other friends were travelling to Burnie (above Launceston). The road was slippery as it was covered with frost after a cold and rainy day. The car spunned and smashed into a tree.

He suffered a fractured left arm and worse, fractured his backbone.

Doctors said he was lucky that he could still move his legs and he did not feel any tingling or numb sensations to his legs as one of his spine bones was shattered and it was squishing against his spinal cord. Any further damage would have paralysed him as the cord will be severed.

I was really shocked and scared when I got the news coz it reminded me of what happen a year back when Veronica, who died in a similar accident in NZ during winter as well. I was travelling to Cradle Mountain in heavy snow so I do know how scary it was driving in such bad condition.

I've been visiting him in Royal Hobart Hospital 2 days now. He looked pretty bad when i first visited him but he's better now, since we have been entertaining him all the way. He was given "special" treatment by the girls as we all took turns to wait on him, feeding him and applying cream on him (he has a bad case of eczema).

He can't move at all as he was in neck braces and he cannot move his back as it's still vey fragile. So he was just lying very still on the bed but thank goodness he could at least move his right hand.

His fellow Japanese friends were kind enough to get him magazines (including Penthouse...which the girls didn't approve) and Ryo has been his translator to Masa's family ever since. We were also trying to get him to eat as he has been refusing food for fear of having to pass motion. I do know how it feels like. You wouldn't want someone to help you do your "business" and it's quite shameful as well. But the nurses were telling us to persuade him to eat.

Since i'm older than him (i'm older than most of everyone else here), I get to play the role of okasan (mom) and/or oneesan (big sister). Therefore, i have the ultimate power to make threats and harassments so that at least he eats something, even if it's only half a banana. I've also been pumping in chocolate milk and water in him and if he says no, i'll always give my deadly stare. Hahaha.... and he always give in in the end...

I don't know why I feel/emphatize with him or why i would take the effort to visit him in the hospital everyday while i can to take care of him but i think it's partly because the whole situation reminded me of my late cousin, Eddy who died of brain tumour 7 years ago. I couldn't do anything back then because i was in school but now that i have an opportunity to do so, i will try my best to give my moral support to Masa. Somehow, when i look at him, i also feel the pain and the suffering he has to go through. He told me that he needs his friends around him, not food. Gosh~ especially when his family is so far away and won't be coming over.

He will be transfered to another hospital this Tuesday to undergo a major surgery to have the shattered backbone removed and to have rods inserted to reinforce his spine. When the doctor explained the whole procedure to him (we were there as well), i felt like crying and i could imagine the pain he has to go through. God! But he has been very strong and courageous and he's been holding up very well on his own, unlike one of his ward mate (thank goodness in another room) who's been screaming and moaning since the day he's been admitted all the time. It was very disturbing as it sounded like something out of a horror movie and Masa couldn't sleep well because of that as well. I feel like taking something to knock that fella out cold and out of mercy as well. Sheesh!! Give us a break dude!! But Masa told me he understood why that guy was screaming like that.... I know he's in much pain but he's trying hard not to show it to show to keep us from worrying.

I'll try to visit him as much as i can before i head back to Malaysia for good next week and please do pray for his speedy recovery and for God to just give him all the strength and courage that he needs to go through this painful process of recovery.

Apple Story: Part 2

2008-07-05T18:58:00.002+08:00

Dear all,

Just in case you're waiting for the sequel to my Apple incident, i have news...

GOOD NEWS!!!! HALLELUJAH!

Apparently, i was one of the lucky people who got saman during the transition period in the hierarchy of the office. So whoever got saman then, it will be withdrawn and we will only be receiving a warning letter instead.

YAHOO!!!!!!!!

I couldn't believe my ears and i know this is a miracle. I've been praying like mad for my fine to be waived coz they initially called me, they told me my saman was still standing and my appeal letter has been rejected. But then he wasn't sure about it. After he checked the whole thing again, he told me the good news. I could've kiss him if that guy was with me... Hahaha!

God's been really good to me.

Everything i had wished to do and complete has been done.

I wish to see snow - done.

I wish my fine being waived - done.

I wish to see the whole of Hobart - done.

I wish to go to Launceston and Cradle Mountain - done.

I wish to see snow on Mount Wellington - done.

I wish to fit in with my fellow collegemate - done.

I wish to see the Cadbury choc factory - done.

I wish to see kangaroos, koalas, tasmanian devils, wallabies & wombats - done.

I am grateful indeed to God for this wonderful opportunity. Being here in Tassie was something I have never dream of and now I am here without having to pay a single cent.

This is a miracle indeed.

And I can say with conviction that I am truly blessed by God.

Best!

2008-07-05T18:43:00.002+08:00

I finally experienced my first snow ever. I was up in Cradle Mountain on a road trip with 7 other friends here. We drove up to Launceston, which took about 4 hours ++ and it was raining, not forgetting miserably cold out there.

We got to Sheffield, the so-called Town of Murals (but i didn't really see a lot of murals) to Tazmazia, the world's largest maze and paid $16 to get lost inside. Oh yea.... did I mention Vimalan was also part of the group? Hehehe.... (in case you dunno who's Vimalan, he's a fellow friend from St Thomas). It was great being in there, getting lost and it's quite scary as well coz the place was really big and the hedges were tall (REALLY tall). There were quite a number of dark areas around, so the guys would love to hide behind these places and pounce on the girls. Imagine the screams.... hahaha! I'm one of the people who pounced on them... :)

Cradle Mountain was cold. And snow.... wasn't like what i had imagine. You do get excited when you see white fluffy stuff falling from the sky but beware, it's messy. It melts rather quickly, especially when you run inside the cabin where it's warm. Everything just turns into water and you'll have puddles of water everything.

Cold & soaking wet...

My legs almost broke then as well as we went hiking around Lake St. Clair which is surrounded by picturesque views of Cradle Mountain. It's really like something out of Chronicles of Narnia or LOTR. No joke dudes~ Not bluffing either....I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Oh ye... back to hiking story. We hike for about 3 hours before we reached the checkpoint and by then, my fingers feel like falling off from the cold. We are to be blame as well la coz we were having a massive snow fight without waterproof gloves. So... you get the picture.

Sorry~ can't upload the pictures now as my internet in the room expired so i'll leave it til next time.

Bye bye~

2008-06-20T20:55:00.005+08:00

This guy's my fav roo!

A Tassie devil

Cute lil' wombat

Me and my fav roo!

Encounters

2008-06-20T20:11:00.002+08:00

Well, yesterday was an "encounter" day for me, as i've met with several cool stuffs as well as uncool people. I was in Bonorong Wildlife Park yesterday on a date with lotsa kangaroos, a wombat, a few Tasmanian devils and the koalas.

Kangaroos in the park were like cats in Malaysia. They were just all over the place, sleeping everywhere possible, although the majority chose to sunbathe in the open on a warm and sunny winter. Just feel free to go over and give them a hug or a nice scratch on the chest (the keeper told us that's the roos' favourite scratch spot). I was scared that they'll chew my hand off but after Lina gave them a nice pat on the head, i found out they're harmless like a house cat!

Most of the roos will be lazing under the sun but some will hop in your direction as we're given a bag of kanga food to feed them. The way they begged food off you, golly! It's like watching Puss in Boots in Shrek! Big, round, gleaming and sympathetic eyes... simply telling you to "PLEASE FEED ME!" haha!! I am sure they have tons of things to eat there.

Caution: wombats are EXTREMELY CUTE (!!!!!!!!) and they BITE. They're even cuter than the kangaroos!! The ones that the keeper showed us was still a babe (the mom died in a roadkill) with massive amount of fur (it's a total fur ball, round and fat). You'll just have that urge to grab that lil' fella and squish her in your arms!!

Unfortunately, the (rather handsome) keeper told us that wombats are not at all cute as they are FEROCIOUS and wild, chewing everything they see. The claws are deadly, so as their butts! The butt's a solid cartilage/bone, and if you knock on it you'll hear a hollow sound coming out of it like someone knocking on the door (it's not painful for them though). They use their invincible butt to kill their predators with just 1 knock under the chin. It can kill a dingo or wild dogs only by 1 blow! (that's for full-grown wombats). When it's turned wild, it cannot be seen during the day at all as they're nocturnals.

Next were the DEVILS. Contrary to popular belief, the devils were not at all that crazy, wild and insanely dangerous. They're even tamer as compared to the cute wombats! They can only run as fast as a chicken (haha!! That's what the cute keeper said), much slower than the wombats. They're great scavengers, and were the ultimate partner of the extinct Tasmanian tigers (the Batman & Robin of Tasmania), playing the role akin to a hyena. It can definitely climb up trees (amazing!) and their jaw strength's like that of a crocodile! We also hear they're always fighting and killing each other, but actually all their "devil-fights" are bluffs, coz they only have violent clashes with each other, but not really trying to chew each other off. They'll just "mouth" their opponent, not bite them. Occasionally, they get punctures on their butts from some pouncing devils from behind....

The koalas... not as i've expected. Seriously, they'll just hang onto their favourite spot on a eucalyptus tree and sleep on it for more than 20 hours a day, occasionally waking up to munch on their favourite eucalyptus leaves. I couldn't believe my eyes coz this guy was sleeping and "pooping" aka doing his big business at the same time. They seriously emit a lot of WMDs, even when they're sound asleep. They're bigger than i expected and i'm not sure if i could manage carrying one of them... Quite huge, like a 3 years old kid.

Another encounter was which a bunch of high school punks and i think the animals in the park were better behaved than them. So happens there were a few junior school kids in the bus with us so there you have it, American TV high-school flicks right in front of your eyes.

These punks were just picking on these 2 brothers (both were rather round with specs aka the "dorks") and it just made my blood boil!!! So i made a remark to Lina in BM, "I memang rasa sangat nak belasah diorang", and my hands were itching to do some damage. I know, don't be stupid. Even though they're still in their early high school years (13-14), they're still way bigger than i am.

The price of speaking up against them = harassment. All these punks/kids have no idea what they're doing, shouting and heckling racist remarks against me as a Chinese. But the good thing is at least they stopped focusing on the poor boy (he's only 7-8!!) and started picking on me.

So what do you do in such situation? Just shuddup and ignore them. The heckling became worse and worse (i think God's really testing me on my patience then) and if the bus driver didn't yell at them, threatening to kick them off the bus, i would have stood up and gave them a piece of my mind (not advisable). I would tell them whatever they're doing is so-not-cool (ala Paris Hilton accent, LOL).

They can only speak English (i bet it's full of grammatical errors & full of swear words) whereas i'm multi-lingua, I'm definitely smarter than them despite my size (brain matters) and I'm the only Chinese in the bus! What makes you cool is when you're different than others and that you have BRAINS.

Thank God my ordeal was over when these wannabe punks got off the bus earlier and i sure hope the boy wasn't traumatised. The brother tried so hard to protect him but obviously, he against a group of hooligans... Not a chance. Poor guy~ I would have stood up for the kids if they cross the line and i don't care even if it might cost me my life. Haha...so heroic pulak~ But you would've done the same if you're in my situation. I was playing over and over again scenes of me slapping them and giving them my Taekwondo treatment if they try something funny. Hilarious... LOL (according to Cle).

Living the American TV shows indeed...

Frustrating yet fruitful day. I'm not sure if i passed the "Patience test" God put me through.... hahaha

Canberra trip

2008-06-18T18:53:00.005+08:00

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No longer Depress!

2008-06-18T18:46:00.003+08:00

Despite the apple incident, i'm no longer depressed, thanks to Jesus! The Holy Spirit taught me something very important, even to those who don't believe it.

Always listen to announcements made on board, ESPECIALLY when it comes to things you can/cannot bring into that place. And don't listen to your IPod like me when announcements are made...

I've submitted my appeal to them (i made sure i made my friends proof-read it for me... can't leak out anything yet until the result's out lest i get into another trouble.) Wait for my good news then!

Another reason why I'm no longer depress...

Well, my exam results came out to be better than the last sem! Utterly shocking for me as i expected to to badly this time...hehehe... Seriously!! And i thought i'm gonna fail my Company Law... super duper unexpected....

My stay here in Tassie's now in it's final lap. When i think about the food and heat back home, can't wait to get back. But when i think about my friends and the beautiful land i've decided to call my second home, I don't wanna leave!!!

All good things must come to an end huh?

1 Apple = RM360

2008-06-14T07:52:00.002+08:00

I was super duper ultra depress yesterday. As i came back from Canberra to Tasmania in a fine mood on Friday the 13th, I was fined $120 (=RM360) for bringing in ONE (1) APPLE in TASMANIA. If you're planning to visit here, I suggest that you do not (!!) bring any food in, especially in your hand luggage lest you suffer the same fate I did.

The only options my fellow college mates told me was to write in an appeal letter to the authorities to waive this fine. I seriously have no idea all these things were prohibited as I brought it in with me from Sydney and Canberra to Melbourne.

So i hope my appeal letter would be APPEALING enough and i do hope God will have mercy on me, sparing me the $120 as He knows how I can't afford to pay RM360 for an apple.

Help me, God!

2008-06-10T09:38:00.006+08:00

Freakin' COLD! Wind was howling!

Hobart from the top

*Disclaimer*

-Sorry, can't post too many pictures now. Will do it later-

Travelling light...

2008-06-10T09:21:00.002+08:00

I'll be heading to Canberra for 4 days in another 40 minutes and i won't be able to blog for 4 days. (No internet access, sorry). After spending more than 2 weeks here in Hobart, i grew to love this place a lot and i don't really feel homesick at all, partly because there are so many Msian students around, thus all the Msian jokes and stories thrown around to annoy the other non-Msians during mealtimes in the cafeteria.

I haven't been posting photos lately, sorry. Been busy... haha!

Well, i was up on Mount Wellington yesterday.

Spectacular. Marvelous. Undescribable.

I'll let the pictures do the talking.

There are a lot of things which i didn't understand about Msians studying abroad, and i am always very sceptical and critical on them. Questions like "why they never make the effort to mix around?", "rich kids, all they know is how to spend their parents' money like water" and the perception that most of them are spoilt brats were answered during my stay here in UTas.

I grew fond of them and i do understand their circumstances too. Not all of them are bad or bratty (a little but that's all) and they still accept all fellow Msians despite our backgrounds. Well, for me to elaborate on all the points i made above would take another day for me to do so. Let me just save my breath...

Everything is not like what we think it is.

Richmond

2008-06-08T15:43:00.002+08:00

Getting colder and colder... i didn't wanna believe d ppl here when they said it'll get EVEN colder... n it's true! Was freezing yesterday, esp at nite! Thank God i survived d nite coz i was shivering even under my blanket... My dumb dumb heater x boleh pakai wan... Cis

There was this farewell thingy in Legal Practice (i'll post d pictures) and i was in Richmond yesterday. It was so............................................. BEAUTIFUL!! Words just can't describe it. Haha... impossible. You just got to see it yourself! (oso will post pictures)

Can't seem to type a lot now. Still groggy from sleep. The cold's and sun's been messing wif my system. Keep wanting to sleep coz of d dark n cold... huhu

Oh ya...Richmond. There were only 3 of us in d bus (me, Lina and Jason (Korean)). Jason's (aka Jae Shin) a really nice guy, chatty for a Korean and have been entertaining us with his traveler's stories. Took tons of picture together and he's been to India, working in Sydney on odd jobs, now in Hobart and next New Zealand. Haha... and he can eat for sure!! Asian guys here really can swallow a whole kangaroo down their throat...

Also followed Supa and Charlotte to Metz yesterday for a drink. On the way there, we got "bombed" with water by some punks! Sheesh~ I was lucky coz i was standing on the inside. Somehow, these white punks target Asians only... What racist!

ok...time for yucky dinner in cafe again!

2008-06-05T18:43:00.005+08:00

In the office. Andrew's d 1st guy at d laptop...

Sunrise

i know..!!!! FAT dy!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!

The musang/raccoon/possum/whatever...

Our neighbour 4 a week (Travis), b4 going back 2 Melbourne for good.

FAT

2008-06-05T18:24:00.002+08:00

I'm getting fatter!!! OH NO!!!!!!!!!! The food here is really huge in portion and fattening (milk, cheese, oil, meat...) AIyo!!!! In Msia oso not like this!!!!!

Very SCARED dy!!!! *panic attack*

Overall, I'm getting better with the cold here already. I can bear with my hands being cold and numb as well as understanding the whole sentence when talking to an Aussie.

You see, when the Aussies speak normally, you can understand them but they have the tendency to speak fast and mumble when they get confortable with you. Bad news for me coz when i speak in my ultra Malaysian accent (with all d "lahs") both of us would be staring at each other and not understand what just happened....

This week had been boring and yet interesting. I spent my week here in the Legal Practice Centre, aka another chambering program for Aussie law grads. The people here seemed cold and formal at first (especially my fellow "cell" mates in the room) coz they're just busy with tons and tons of work.

But once you get to know them better, they're actually nice and funny! Andrew went bonkers today due to the accumulated stress and work. Haha... Another "cell" mate was Adrienne, very motherly and takes good care of us...

I also saw something like a cat but not a cat yesterday on the rubbish dump digging for food. It was too big and fat for a cat so first thought was "MUSANG!"...cute guy!! You know the Japanese cartoons, where they always draw a raccoon... Ya...something like that.

Another shocker came in d form of The Star online. Petrol gone up to RM2.70 per litre. Insane~ Everything go up but not our salary... How are we suppose to sustain ourselves? At least here in the small, slow and boring Hobart, the pay is extremely good!! Even a normal labourer at the construction site earns more than $2000!!!! Aussie $ summore le!!!

The Msian Government must be joking.

Looks like i'll have a good reason to go on diet when i'm back from Australia. Everyday eat roti saja... *sigh*

Pictures

2008-06-02T18:01:00.006+08:00

Inside d Centre For Arts, UTas whr Legal Prac is

Lotsa birds (x idea wat species) @ Franklin Wharf

A fantastic view of Mount Wellington & the wharf

With new-found churchmates in Franklin Wharf

In Salamanca Market

Beauty and the Beast

2008-06-02T17:40:00.002+08:00

Hobart and Tasmania are overall, a very beautiful place, one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen in my entire life. I haven't been to too many places but the view here is definitely breathtaking. God's creation certainly testifies all the way to the max in Tasmania.

It's getting really, really cold here (it was 3 degrees celsius this morning) and it was freezing. My room was so cold, everything else just felt like ice when you touch it. (My handphone, camera, cups etc). The thought of waking up and walking down to the faculty and to the city was impossible. I just didn't want to wake up!! And I don't know how long can my comforter keep me warm as it keeps getting colder and colder!! I've checked on Google and found out it's going to be 0c this Saturday! Oh dear... Help me survive the cold, Lord Jesus!

I've been walking a lot here in Hobart, more than I've ever walked in my entire life. To put the kilometres together, I think it can easily reach 30km. It might even be 50km!! Haha...crazy rite??!! When I had my scooter on I was complaining of the sun and rain. Now, I just wish I had something to transport me around instead of my legs. They've been aching and groaning for me to stop walking. Joints and bones were creaking already, especially in the cold. You would need to warm it up before you can start walking properly without the pain. Haha...

Legal Practice was a challenge today. We were given a legal pop quiz on 1st year subjects (i know!! I forgot everything) and tomorrow we'll be doing trust accounting (how exciting can that be...). We are to show ourselves at the office by 9am tomorrow morning too and I seriously wonder if I could pull that off....

In short, I don't think I am able to blog everything here so i'll let the pictures do the talking, aite?

G'day mate~

p.s. Oh yea, the title... Hobart's a beauty...i looked like beast from lack of sleep, being fat and bad hair day...

Cold...

2008-05-29T18:54:00.005+08:00

In Franklin Square

A view from John Fisher and Christ College.

haha...dat's been my tagline while I'm here in hobart - COLD.

Today, as I was walking to the court, the wind at Elizabeth Mall was SO strong and cold, it almost blew me off course and froze me... *Help*

Nothing special happened today. Almost fell asleep in court coz it's so warm and nice. Half the time I have absolutely no idea wat the heck they're talking about as when they mumble... that's it. God knows wat was it about...

Lunch this afternoon was cold. Was hiding in the bus stop (to no avail) from d chilling wind. The smell of hot coffee made me start imagining that I am back in Malaysia with a bowl of hot kuey teow soup.

Buying coffee here is like getting it from Starbucks for normal coffee. Imagine drinking Starbucks every day... Pokai abis-abis!

Franklin Square was really scenic. Manage to snap a few pictures before the bus came. I also got a picture of the view from the top of my hostel overlooking the sea and the wharf. Super beautiful.

I hope i'll be able to change my tagline tomorrow from COLD to COOL.

I'm Here

2008-05-28T20:06:00.003+08:00

I'm here in University of Tasmania, Hobart, Australia. Yay!!

Long flight here. 7 hours to Sydney. Manage to get a quick tour of Sydney b4 cabut for connecting flight to here.

Can't really blog much as my internet access limited giler. I got this quota thingy and only limited to this for 4 weeks. So must save up and kiam siap a little.

It's really cold now over here, about 5 degrees at nite as winter came earlier than expected and it's raining. Luckily brought more sweaters than expected. i seriously didn't expect it to be this cold. Gonna kena frostbite dy...

The view here is really fantastic. From my hostel i can see the wharf with the mountains as background. Mmg like coming out of postcard.

Lots of Malaysians here and everyone's been so helpful to me and my friend here, looking blur and sesat all the time. The Aussies were really nice as well. So we're seriously lucky to get so many ppl to help us around. God really blessed me in this area.

Now hunting for the CF and church here and hope to have a place to stay for a week to wait for the conference.

Saw a few pockaroos and rabbits hopping around. Cute until i stepped into their poops littered all over the walkway. Cis~

alrite, gotta go... will try to blog soon.

Anticipation

2008-05-25T13:46:00.003+08:00

Well, in another 8 hours i'll be flying to Australia.

There's been a lot of anticipation, fear of the uncertainty, what's going to happen (e.g. how to get my laundry done...etc etc).

I was almost packed when my cousin, Jamie barged in telling me I can't have a hand luggage, my Reebok pack bag and my laptop bag together with me on the plane. So have to rearrange my whole bag again...

I've also been checking out hotspots to visit while I'm transiting in Sydney. I'm definitely gonna check out the famous Opera House, The Rocks, Darling Harbour and probably the Royal Botanical Gardens. Hahaha... Kill 2 birds with 1 stone~

Been checking out the weather and the temperature there as well and gosh! It's gonna be really cold!! It was 6 degrees celsius yesterday night in Hobart, Tasmania and it's gonna rain on Tuesday... lagi la merana and cold~ Thank goodness it's gonna be cool in Sydney... ala Genting or a lil' colder. Yay!!

This is gonna be my last entry for now. The next one will be from Australia, with love~

Adioz!!

Last Minute...

2008-05-24T22:06:00.002+08:00

Been doing a lot of last minute shopping and preparation before I fly off to Tasmania tomorrow.

Been eating all the yummy Malaysian food since I will be deprived of it for 2 months. Haha...everything! You name it!

Nasi lemak, Char Kuey Teow, Asam Laksa, Prawn Mee, Nasi Kerabu, Nasi Dagang, Bak Kut Teh....

Huhu...i'll definitely miss rice and curry. Trust me....

Nyways, been doing a lot of shopping as well, getting all the international plugs and padlocks (for my luggage, in case someone wanna use me as a drug mule...)

Tripod stand for my camera (i foresee there'll be many times where no one will wanna hold the camera for me...)

Change my money(!) - thank goodness d rates went down a lil'. Last week was 3.0, then 3 days ago 3.1!! but then when i went to change in Midvalley it was 3.08...boleh la...better than nothing.

Can't really sleep as well these few days as thoughts kept running through my mind, worrying what i'll forget to bring and what not!

Tomorrow I'll be going grocery shopping to get all the yummy Malaysian snacks there so that I don't miss home so much.

My aunty told me to get Maggie mee there but then that's the least that i'll miss...i think... Been surviving on Maggi for 2 years when I was staying in UKM hostel... I think some wax's still inside my belly... muahaha...

Alright then, I hope i'll get to blog 1 last time tomorrow before I board the plane.

Till then... adioz~

Tsukareta!

2008-05-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'm so exhausted!! Travelling is not fun at all especially the preparation part!!!

I was just staring at the suitcase and I was dumbstruck for a moment. I just have no idea on how to pack!! The amount of things to bring and how to get everything in... *Headache*

Ok. I give up....

I've also bought the newest Clay Aiken cd called "On My Way Here". Not bad... A very good listen after a day of stress. Lite & easy and probably not everybody's cup of tea. I like the title track which was written by Ryan Tedder (Yes, from 1 republic). Talks mostly about Clay's on life and what he expect in the future.

I also like "The Real Me" - talks about not looking to the superficial but the "inside" of the person. The character and personality of him/her, not the outward appearance only.

The bad news is.... I broke the cover!!! ARGHH!!! it's not even 3 days old!!!!! Aiyo.... nasib baik the cd still ok...the cover was in pieces dy coz it fell from the top of the cabinet... Adush!!!!

Ok. Fine. Nasi sudah jadi bubur.

Then today went to Midvalley to change money. Mana tau they don't sell traveller's cheque in that Maybank. Told me to go to KL Sentral.

Fine. Went over there. No traveller's cheque in AuD.

Fine. I'll take the USD.

Went back to Midvalley. Found out AuD went up again. Now it's 3.100. Pokai~ almost same with USD dy...

Well, at least I got some things done.

Flying off this Sunday! Yahoo!! Departure: 2200.

Will be transiting in Sydney for 7 hours (yay!! can go visit the Opera House!!). But will be arriving in Sydney at 0750.

Then next flight to Hobart at around 2pm.

Can't wait to get there!! Hurray!

Clay Aiken - Measure of a Man

2008-05-20T00:34:00.001+08:00

Measure of a Man

2008-05-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

I am currently so in love with this song by Clay Aiken. It's weird coz you can apply this song in your relationship with Jesus Christ and also in your daily relationship with your dad/boyfriend/friend etc....

I just love the lyrics which talks about how you measure a man. Do you measure him by the amount of expensive "toys" he possesses or by his character?

Do enjoy the song.

Measure of A Man

If one day you discover him

Broken down he's lost everything

No cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not

The woman at his side is all that he has got

Why do you ask him move heaven and earth

To prove his love has worth

*Would he walk on water?

Would he run through fire?

Would he stand before you?

When it's down to the wire

Would he give his life up

To be all he can

Is that, is that, is that... how you measure a man

If by chance all he had to give you

Was three words wrapped around your finger

Would that be deep enough at the end of every day

And how will you ever know

If a man is what he says?

*repeat

He never gives up

Lets go of his dream

His world goes around for his one true belief

Is that how you know?

Is that what it means?

Would he walk on water?

Would he run through fire?

Would he stand before you?

Would he be your anchor when the dark unfolds?

Would he always love you the best that he knows?

Would he give his life up

To be all he can

Is that, is that, is that... how you measure a man

I Will Be Here

2008-05-15T12:41:00.005+08:00

A song dedicated to the Myanmar cyclone victims and the China earthquake victims.

I Will Be Here - Steven Curtis Chapman

Tomorrow morning if you wake up

And the sun does not appear

I will be here

If in the dark, we lose sight of love

Hold my hand and have no fear

Cause I will be here

I will be here

When you feel like being quiet

When you need to speak your mind

I will listen

And I will be here

When the laughter turns to crying

Through the winning, losing and trying

We'll be together

I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up

And the future is unclear

I will be here

Just as sure as the seasons were made for change

Our lifetimes are made for these years

So I will be here

I will be here

And you can cry on my shoulder

When the mirror tells us we're older

I will hold you

And I will be here

To watch you grow in beauty

And tell you all the things you are to me

I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made

To You and to the One who gave you to me

I will be here - Steven Curtis Chapman

2008-05-15T12:41:00.001+08:00

My Prayer

2008-05-15T12:06:00.003+08:00

This is my prayer
For the people of Myanmar and China
In the midst of such disaster
No one asked for this to happen
And surely You, oh God, did not made it happened

The bread I ate this morning
Oh Jesus, I give you thanks
Knowing that while I'm eating here
The other side of the world has nothing to eat

Shivering in the cold from lack of shelter
Blistering under the heat of the day
Children running around
Lost, forlorn... with no clean food and water

Adults cry in desperation
Asking the "why" question
Begging for mercy

Let the authorities open up doors for help to enter
Help offered by fellow men in times of need
Let their hearts of stone be turn
Let them hear the cries of desperation
And the voice of God
Let them know that they are not alone
Let them know the sincerity of these men

Let their pride be humbled
Let their ears hear
Let their eyes see
Let them have faith in the people offering their help
Let them care for the victims calling out

I pray for mercy, Oh Lord
For your people whom you love
Surely you are weeping in heaven as well
Together with the heartbroken and the grieving
Together with the helpless
Just as Jesus wept
You, oh Father wept too for us

"Answer me when I call to you

O my righteous God

Give me relief from my distress

Be merciful to me and hear my prayer"

-Psalm 4:1-

Have mercy and grace upon the suffering now...

Hear our pleadings and cries, Lord

For You will never leave us nor forsake us.

This I believe with all my heart and soul.

I seal this prayer in Your name...

Amen.

Interviews

2008-05-14T01:26:00.003+08:00

I find these interviews are the most honest and vulnerable interview he ever gave. He was not even this honest in Larry King.

Enjoy~

p.s. Love his WWJD (What would Jesus do) bracelet. I didn't know...

Clay Aiken - Prime Time (Interview) Pt2

2008-05-14T01:25:00.003+08:00

Clay Aiken - Prime Time (Interview) Pt1

2008-05-14T01:25:00.001+08:00

Clay-nation?

2008-05-14T00:09:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why I was suddenly so obsessed with Clay Aiken. Somehow I was googling on him to know more about his UNICEF role. Wasn't a fan of singing before this and the only thing I heard was "Invisible" and "The Way".

While browsing through youtube (haha...i seriously love youtube man!! you can search for any videos in it!! super), I was surprised to discover that Clay Aiken, besides being a man with big, powerful and beautiful voice, I'm also quite shocked to discover he's such a funny guy!!

He was super in all the talk shows in which he appeared as guest or co-host and boy~ he really had a wonderful sense of humour! You never thought he's such fun on shows! haha... check out youtube and search under Clay Aiken-Jimmy Kimmel and you'll know what I mean... He's such a natural (I'm not licking up to his boots but it's been a long time since I've seen such a natural, after the Drew Carey show... I kinda forgot the title of the show... it's not Drew Carey show but he's in it...)

He started off in American Idol in such a nerdy-dorky image and looking at how he evolved with time was also amazing. His best image would definitely be during his 2nd album "A Thousand Different Ways". He looked HOT in there, with darker, longer hair with bangs, as compared to the "durian" head...haha! But his current image... ermm.... I didn't liked it at all. He looks too... "girlish" if you know what I mean and he looked like a doll, all waxed up! In other words... he looked fake... Fire his stylist!

I am also very impressed with his dedication towards his work with children, especially children with disabilities through the Bubel-Aiken Foundation, and not forgetting him being an ambassador for UNICEF. I guessed it was because of his passion for teaching and children way before he started off with American Idol.

I really salute you, Clay for holding on to your words that you would use your influence and position into good use and for the children, which he did until today. *Applause*

Not many megastars out there would put their influence and fame into good use (i.e. Britney, Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton etc). If there were more Bonos and Aikens in this world, wow! You'll definitely see lotsa changes.

I was also watching the episode in which he appeared in "Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader". (It's like Who Wants to be a Millionaire but you challenge 10 yr old kids in 5th grade/Standard 4...)

Waliao... *speechless*

Clay Aiken definitely has brains.

He managed to reach the $300K with still 2 cheat options left, and not many people manage to do it. Actually, he could have continued to the $1 million but then I have no idea why he chose to "flunk" out of school. The $300K will be going to his foundation to fund summer camps for special children. *Aww shucks* How sweet....

Oi... lotsa questions I also dunno the answer wan k... it's like kacang for him. Maybe because he used to be a teacher, not to forget having a Ba Education (Special Education).

I also love the fact that embraces his personality and image as a dork/nerd with grace and the way he laughs it off. Not many people (in fact, i think about 90% of us) are comfortable with how they look like and readily embrace it, what more joke about it! To Aiken, it doesn't matter if you call him a dork, nerd or gay (yes, tons of controversies and rumours saying he's gay), but he is confident of who he is and he knows that his family will always love him and support him whatever he is, may it be a popstar or an average school teacher in a small town (he's from the South, hailing from Raleigh, North Carolina).

He still speaks with the Southern *twang* (he calls it the red-neck accent...hehe) and I love it!! Come on Malaysians! Be proud with our accents too and stop faking the Brits/Americans (I hate it more if they can't pull it off... Like what Simon Cowell will usually say... HORRIBLE).

His singing, well... His voice is phenomenal. After rewatching the 2nd season of AI, I felt the Top 3 were super, as compared to the rest, especially the current season. David Archuleta's nothing compared to Clay Aiken (I honestly think Clay Aiken outsang everyone else in AI, except Kelly Clarkson, of course...)

So, to conclude... this guy is a man with a big voice, with a even bigger heart and God bless him (he's religious...but I don't do religious as Christianity is not a religion, it's life! Hallelujah!). I will continue to keep myself updated on him, especially on his humanitarian works.

Way to go, Clay Aiken!

Clay Aiken A Thousand Days

2008-05-14T00:02:00.001+08:00

Clay Aiken-Invisible

2008-05-13T23:02:00.001+08:00

Home Sweet Home~

2008-05-10T16:40:00.005+08:00

A day after exam...straight away "jetted" home (by bus, of coz!! haha) to Kuantan for Mother's Day and also to see everyone & my beloved hometown before jetting off (for real this time) to Hobart, Tasmania next Sunday.

Man!! I'm definitely gonna miss home, Malaysia, and the food!!!

Been shopping like mad for everything i need there. Really Pokai dy. And I dunno how am I gonna sumbat everything into the luggage and pray hard it won't exceed 20 kgs!! Worse still, how am I gonna come back w/o exceeding the weight limit with all the souvenirs and request??!!! Aiyo~

Hanging out in Starbucks, Mega with my bro now, sipping on latte and enjoying my music. Peace and quiet from the crazy life i have.

I know, i know... i'm supposed to be finishing my thesis rite?? Yes!! Rite away!! my have inspiration and now i kinda know what to write dy...hehehe....

Been to the new East Coast Mall, the new hip place in my hometown.

Not bad~ But the parking and toilet's HORRIBLE!! There were leftover cement everywhere, not to forget lotsa chipped parts off the wall... the parking area's flooded... still dusty with cement debris...

But on the positive note... Jeng Jeng Jeng!! We have:

(1) Sushi King!!! (wah~ so happy...went for dinner yesterday & lunck today...muahahaha)
(2) Padini Concept Store!! (Wow!! now at least when i'm back i got things to look at...)
(3) MNG's coming!! (another place to look at....)
(4) Big Apple (donut chain...nyways, i'm x a donut fan...doesn't matter to me...)
(5) Carrefour (almost 4got... hehehe... Nasib baik x in China...i can sense another anti-french protest...)

What else ah?? So basically, fellow Kuantanians who are so used to KL life, at least when you're back you'll still a lil' glimpse of KL life in the mall. Not too bad eh?

Haven't been to the beach yet. Lotsa to-do things in my list before i go off for my "holiday-cum-attachment". I wonder can i finish everything in time!! Help me, Lord Jesus!

But was so lonely before my bro came back.

Miss you, Phil Phil... Cle abandoned me...dun wanna "choi" me oso yesterday....huhu...

Nobody here in Kuantan. Sien~

Anyhow, i'll still love this place for what it is.

Hurray for Sushi King!!

Faster!!

2008-05-05T11:40:00.001+08:00

I can't wait for exams to finish!!

Faster!!!

Going nuts dy....

Help!!!

Sad~

2008-04-29T23:37:00.005+08:00

So sick and tired of studying... When la exam wanna over!!! Betahan~

Nyways, today's quite a blue day for me coz my housemates, Elaine and Jac are moving out. They finished their final paper yesterday (extremely jealous!!) and are considered "unofficially graduated".

So comes the end of their tenancy in Hentian Kajang with me (I'm still staying there till next year... with new housemates). They were packing today and it makes me feeling kinda sad coz i'm always not in the house... I didn't managed to get any farewell gifts/dinner with them (I'll pay for it during Convo yea... :>) and looking at the gradually empty house, I can't wait for exams to be done!!

Staying with them has been fun! Though most of the times the house is always quiet but I'll miss the times when we'll come out of our "caves" and chat while watching TV or preparing something in the kitchen.

They've always been my "tai ka cheh" or big sisters in the house as I'm always asking them on my studies. They've fervently paid the bills since the time we moved in and I miss the feeling of just giving them the money and let them settle the rest!

So...

(1) Thanks for paying the bills since day 1;
(2) Thanks for cleaning the house when I'm always not around to do so;
(3) Thanks for the books and advises I really needed in my 3rd year!!;
(4) And... thanks for being wonderful and great housemates! I couldn't asked for more.

So...

(1) Good luck in everything you do (esp chambering...Haha...everyone knows the nightmares awaiting there...);
(2) Have a great holiday before starting work;
(3) God bless you guys; and
(4) I'm gonna miss you guys so much!!!

Sayonara~

Adioz amigos~

Ciao~

Bye Bye~

Bon Voyage~

Rumours

2008-04-27T23:39:00.002+08:00

On the surface, the book cover looks like something out of a sci-fi movie or something Asimov would write but nope... all wrong. "Rumours of Another World" by Philip Yancey, who wrote the acclaimed "The Jesus I Never Knew", is quite a funny read to me. Why?

Well, it didn't catch my attention in the first place but as I explore further and further into the book and the contents Yancey was trying to express, it really is a fascinating book! Some people might see it as their least favourite Yancey book, but I think it's good as it did opened up my ears and eyes to listen to and see the "rumours of another world" that we often put in a box and pushed it aside somewhere in the store room full of cobwebs.

We always missed out hearing things from the other side of the world. I mean, we even miss out on what out friends have got to say sometimes! The "other" side simply means what God and His kingdom has got to say to us! The loud and noisy world we're living in today has drown out the sound and messages from God and often, we go about our daily activities without getting Him involved or shoving aside His opinions, simply because we fail to hear or see God.

Another thing that really caught my attention in the book is sex (haha...people always get caught up with sex...don't they?) But it's not about the abstinence...bla bla bla thing that turns most people off but it's about why we are so drawn to sex and we never think twice on getting ourselves involved in outside-marriage affairs.

Why? Well, Yancey put it this way.

Sex is about getting closer and intimate with a person. And in a way, we yearn to have sex to cover up our insecurities and loneliness that we have inside. We, humans, yearn to be near God, even if it be unconscious. We'll find all sorts of way to get that feeling or "euphoria" and sex is the nearest outlet. But having sex, something so intimate with a stranger won't give us that. In order to know someone better, we need to communicate, understand and learn about him/her and sex just won't give us that. It'll just be another random physical act of fleeting pleasure, just like how people are addicted to drugs. They just want the "high", to draw closer to something that we just can't reach in reality.

And it can get dangerous.

Go read the book. I recommend it. It may be dry in the beginning. Just like how "Prayer" was for me, but it gets deeper and interesting as you read on. You might discover a lot of new things by reading it too! I've discovered a great deal of American history and balck slavery in this book. How slaves used to sing songs about being free because Christ set them free... and they meant every single word of it!

How do we sing our songs today? Of being suicidal, broken hearted because you're being jilted, killing and cursing... haha! I'm remembering what Joel Osteen said. "You're speaking all these things into being! You're actually cursing yourselves by saying it out loud!". Bill Cosby in Oprah also said something like that and instead of wasting so much time and energy of these rubbish, might as well channel those energy into good use and into positive-vibes!

Yup!! The world does need a lot of positive-vibes now!

Far longer than forever

2008-04-25T01:36:00.001+08:00

This is my idea

2008-04-25T01:32:00.001+08:00

Someday My Prince Will Come

2008-04-25T00:58:00.001+08:00

once upon a dream

2008-04-25T00:55:00.001+08:00

Nostalgia

2008-04-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

After being depressed and miserable the whole day because of Company Law exam, I decided to reward myself by indulging in a marathon of Walt Disney's classic Princess animations.

So I basically spent the whole day watching Swan Princess and the sequels, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White and the 7 Dwarfs, and last but not least, Cinderella.

Giler~ That's what you must be thinking.

And somehow I just realized, or maybe it's too long since I've watched it... That's it's my 1st time watching Sleeping Beauty!!! Hahaa!!! But the final scene looks familiar so maybe I've watched it before...

I simply love all the songs in Swan Princess:

(1) Opening: This Is My Idea
(2) Far Longer Than Forever
(3) Practice, Practice, Practice!

Snow White:

(1) I Wish
(2) Someday My Prince Will Come (tell me which girl won't know this song??!! But I would like to make a tribute to a dear departed friend, Veronica. I still can hear this song ringing in my ears during your memorial service... Missing you lots~)

Sleeping Beauty:

(1) Once Upon A Dream (yup, the one and only song!)

I can simply conclude that amongst all, Sleeping Beauty's the best! I love the storyline, simple yet sends a powerful message of true love, courage and good triumph over evil. Better than Harry Potter!!

I also love the way they drew Princess Aurora and Prince Philip. Perfect! From the face to the costume!! Super!! Splendid!!

The songs they sang in the classics (esp. the older ones like Snow White and Sleeping Beauty) sounds ethereal and somewhat eery when you listen to the hummings and high-pitch voices of the heroine....

Nevertheless, all these songs really brought back all the sweet memories of my childhood and also the dreams I harbour as a girl...

Looking for my prince, living my dreams and to be surrounded by love, beauty and kindness.

You don't get such things anymore now, don't you? Not even on TV or movies anymore. Most of the Disney movies are all on talking animals (Ratatouille was good! So was The Incredibles!) but... no more fairy tales like the good ol' days (Not forgetting memorable and evergreen songs)... Huhu

So now the only thing I can do is dream a good dream and walk with my prince I knew in once upon a dream....

*Sigh*

Rice Become Porridge

2008-04-23T20:36:00.003+08:00

As the ol' Malay proverb goes, "Nasi sudah jadi bubur".

When rice turns into porridge, nothing can be done to salvage it or turn it back into rice again.

And that is exactly my situation now... Huhu... *Depress*

Blew my Company Law. This is the first time ever in the history of the exams that I can't finish answering 2 out of 4 questions and Oh Man!! God bless me indeed...

Haven't slept the whole night studying like mad. Regretted the fact I didn't start early. My answer sheet...

Horrible.

Rod Stewart sang, "I don't wanna talk about it".

Yes. I don't wanna talk about it.

Too depressing.

Now I'll just put my hopes in God, praying for his grace and mercy to be with me.

Not forgetting to ask for His shalom.

Peace that no one can give.

p.s. I almost strangled my nephew for making such a racket this afternoon. Screaming & wailing like crazy. Dah la I under stress~ Aiyo~

The time of the Year... again~

2008-04-22T17:27:00.004+08:00

Man, I've always hated and dread this time of the year.... Final exams!! Where I won't get enough sleep and entertainment. To make matters worse, I have to complete my thesis at the same time too this year! Aiyo~ Tasukete!!! HELP!!

But at the same time too, I'm kinda glad that I only have to sit for 4 papers. Waliao~ record man!! Usually i have 6-8 papers to sit for! And each time exam approaches, I'll always asked myself, "Why did I EVER apply for law school?!!"

So, please please please (!!!) pray for me... I haven't got the knack/semangat to study at all... another major problem for me but I know, Jesus' always watching over me. But then , faith without deeds is dead!! No point sitting there and praying like mad when you don't help yourself at all!!

Here my exam schedule:

23/4/08 (dats tmr!!) - Company and Partnership Law
30/4/08 - Land Law
5/5/08 - Equity & Trust
8/5/08 - Islamic Jurisprudence

Hopefully i'll be able to go through this madness, and i still have to rush like mad to get the Tasmania exchange done.

I HATE REDTAPES!!! ABSOLUTELY!!! TOTEMO KIRAI!!!

If if anybody so happens to be in the government/politics reads this... MALAYSIA BOLEH indeed...

I simply don't understand why students can't deal with the university and then the university just have to tell the Kementerian that we are going out of the country as students!!

Come on man, if you big shots can get out of the country hassle-free, i don't understand why we can't do the same!!! I felt like I'm a prisoner within my own country!! Where's my freedom of movement!!! Cakap tak serupa bikin!

UNIVERSITY STUDENTS TREATED LIKE PRIMARY SCHOOL KIDS! (Raise yer hands if you agree with me!)

Hey, if the private sectors can do this, why can't the government!!

Zen Zen Wakarimasen!!

Absolutely...Holy Spirit

2008-04-19T00:17:00.006+08:00

I absolutely love this song, Holy Spirit by Planet Shakers from one of their older albums, Evermore. It moves my in spirit and I can feel His presence and hear His still, small voice talking to me. It's a wonderful feeling indeed to know that I am loved and cared for.

Absolutely~

Holy Spirit

You're all I need

You're all I breathe

It's You that I'm thirsting for

It's You I seek

On bended knee

It's You that I'm longing for

I want to worship You only

In spirit and in truth

Longing for Your Anointing

To fall on me

Let it fall from heaven

Holy Spirit, Holy Spirit

Come Holy Spirit

Come pour out Your oil anointing

We need Your power

We need Your strength

Come pour it out Lod

Open Heaven

My other new 'Babe'

2008-04-18T00:07:00.003+08:00

Nike Cortez

My new 'Babe'

2008-04-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

Hitachi 160GB SATA (dunno wat casing...haha)

New "Toys"

2008-04-17T23:40:00.002+08:00

Tired like mad today...

After rushing around UKM to get things done... rush back home to finish a proposal with crept out of nowhere.

Then rush to KTM station to get my new "baby" - external hard disk... hoho...

After searching high & low for it, i decided to get Hitachi 160GB SATA. The differences between SATA and IDE caused me a big headache coz i seriously am a computer illiterate. My cousin-in-law told me to get Hitachi IDE but the sales guy recommended Western Digital SATA. What the heck man~

Haha...the best part was when dat sales guy challenged me. "So, does your friend have better knowledge on this than me?".

"Erm... yes. He's a software engineer..."

Goodness...i could have sworn dat guy was so insulted he almost chased me away from the place. Haha~ No offence yea... Honest answer mah... you ask i answer la. As simple as that....huhu

After Low Yat...rush to KLCC to meet my brother. Mana tau dat fella lambat 1 hour! Pig~ Walked around KLCC 2x kaki pun mau patah.

Hallelujah! At last he came~ mana tau more window shopping from top to bottom of KLCC. Dah la i haven't ate anything since breakfast... Aiyo~

Finally manage to drag him to get my shoes so I can eat.

Isetan (surprisingly) has lotsa nice shoes with reasonable prices! Serious!! Same model in Studio R/Stadium/Nike/Adidas/Reebok outlets but waaaaaay cheaper than d retails!

After deciding between Nike's Air Force-1, Cortez and Dunk... I decided to get the Nike Cortez. Yes... I can hear the guys cursing me for not taking AF-1.... AF-1's a little to big and bulky for my feet and Nike Dunk no more size left... so take Cortez lo...

Yay! finally get to makan! So happy!! Ureshii yo!! Initially wanna go Kim Gary's but then my bro malas wanna walk to Avenue K so went to Genki Sushi instead. *Bleks* not nice...i miss Kim Gary's beef noodles... Been craving for beef the whole day dy.

Nyways, in the midst of my shopping spree, managed to bump into Yuan Lin in the KTM. Then bumped into Zameera at the KL Sentral Monorail station. In case you dunno who the heck are they... They're my former schoolmates in MGSS. Haven't seen them in ages! Especially Zameera! Haha...still remember when she was yelling like mad at me... Pai seh man~ in public summore...haha!

Good! Great day for me even though super exhausted, not to mention I'm broke as well and I can't feel my legs.

I need spa now~

Simply Beautiful~

2008-04-11T20:23:00.004+08:00

I've finished watching the entire anime called "La Corda D'oro" which is a story of a girl, who has no talent in anything whatsoever, bumps into a music fairy and thus, was bestowed with a magical violin which any Tom, Dick and Harry can play on.

She was also "forcibly" enrolled into a concours, with other super-gifted-talented students from the music department and life was never the same again after that.

This is one of the best shojo anime I've watched so far after Ouran High School Host Club (which was super comedic). This anime is touching, showcasing all the beautiful classical music that I've never appreciated and boy! was it excellent~ Aiyo~ heart-melting la~

Not forgetting all the bishonens and super leng-chais (everyone's straight in this anime), it'll simply add more colours into your life in case you never liked classical music like me.

The best ensemble in this anime was the "Ave Maria" (by Schubert) violin duet between heroine- Hino Kahoko and Tsukimori Len. Simply amazing! Click at the left-hand side of my blog to listen to it.

Girls - You'll simply melt listening to this piece... Trust me...

The other ensemble I liked most was at the end of the anime, episode 25 in which the boys, in honour of their lady-love, Kahoko, played a quintet version of Salut D'armour (Love's Greeting), a composition by Sir Edward Elgar and wah~ *speechless*

I wish they have a complete soundtrack of this anime.

Marvellous!

Bravo!

I'm So Tired

2008-04-09T21:48:00.001+08:00

My sentiments now exactly...

A song I always like to sing when I'm tired...by the Beatles. It expresses everything i wanna say when I'm dead tired~

I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
No,no,no.

I'm so tired I don't know what to do
I'm so tired my mind is set on you
I wonder should I call you but I know what you would do
You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've gotfor a little peace of mind

I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset
Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette
And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
He was such a stupid get.

You'd say I'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane
You know I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind
I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind
I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind

Busy, busy, busy...

2008-04-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

Busy looking at tour websites telling me how to go about Hobart, Tasmania and the best places to visit. I'm really excited rite now to just my feet there (although lotsa restlessness and uncertainties... It's good to be in Malaysia. Winter clothing bapak expensive man!)

Now that I've too many sweaters...I'll be getting a comfy walking shoes to ganti my worn-out sneakers...not to forget a nice jacket to keep myself from freezing. And as food is expensive, it's time for me to go on a diet over there.

I know I shouldn't be busy doing all these things 1st since I have my thesis still looming over my head, not to mention exams coming... Die la~ haha!

Excited! Aper nak buat~

The Best!!

2008-04-06T00:11:00.002+08:00

North and South.

The best Brit period drama I've ever watched!! Better than all the Jane Austen adaptations! The director did a good job in creating such a intense, passionate and compelling drama based on the Elizabeth Gaskell's novel with the same title.

Mr. Thornton is such a hunk! Waliao~ Can't get enough of him even though he's sort of a anti-hero in this story. Perfectly cast. As well as the heroine, Margaret Hale. She's so beautiful!

This whole drama is about the realities of the North and South of Britain during the Victorian era which existed with completely different cultures and industries. The Southerns were the laid-back and wealthier community whereas the Northerns were seen as uncouth and uneducated, living a hard life with the air constantly choked with putrid industrial smoke.

The Hales were uprooted by the family patron, Mr. Hale to Milton after quitting the parish as a clergyman as it was against his conscience. (Long story...i suggest you go read the book)

The Hales (esp. the women) found it hard to adapt to the hard life of Milton, filled with poverty and depressing. This setting reminds me of the setting in the book Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt.

Margaret met Mr. John Thornton, a wealthy industrialist who owns a cotton-mill and there were misunderstandings between them as Margaret was the romantic and idealist type, full of compassion for the poor people in Milton (mostly mills workers) while Mr. Thornton was the realist who wouldn't bother showing mercy to his workers. (actually he does but if he's too soft, he deemed that everyone would soon start to step on his head) Thus, Margaret thought of him as a cruel employer.

Later on as the story developed, the workers went on strike and you can see the historical side of this drama as it shows how unionism came to be, of how desperate the lower-class community were in trying to live and from the viewpoint of the employer in such a case. The whole employer-employee relationship in this movie was so intense, you would not want to budge from your seats at all!

The reason behind the workaholic and grim Mr. Thornton was because his father lost all the family fortune in a speculation. Mr. Thornton was taken off from school and was forced to work hard like his present employees just to build up the empire again, and fending for his mother and sister after his father died.

See how Margaret and Mr. Thornton's love story developed in the drama. Simply breathtaking~

Alright, I wouldn't wanna spoil the whole drama for you. All you have to do is go on youtube and watch it. Believe me, you wouldn't regret it at all. I watched it the whole night until 5.30 am in the morning.

I'm going Crazy!

2008-04-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

I've been indulging myself non-stop with Jane Austen's adaptation on youtube!! Arghh!!! I've just completed watching Persuasion and Mansfield Park and I think I'm gonna get all her books!! It's wonderful!! So dreamy~ Hahaha....

I didn't know BBC came up with a complete adaptation of all of Jane Austen's writings! Can't wait to watch the rest of it! It's really super. Now I'm hooked to this after anime. Oh no!!! And my thesis is suffering from my lack of attention~

I'm gonna watch Emma after this...hehehe!

Sense & Sensibility: Comment #2

2008-04-02T02:21:00.002+08:00

I've finished watching both (!) the 2008 miniseries and also the 1995 movie and I've got to confess, they are both good!!!!!!!! Excellent! Fabulous! Marvellous! Romantic!!!

I'm quite torn apart on who will make the better out of the characters as all the actors were splendid!

Elinor Dashwood: I preferred Hattie Morahan than Emma Thompson on this one because I think Emma Thompson's a little to old for the character. But feature wise, I would say Emma looks prettier than Hattie.

Marianne Dashwood: Both Kate Winslet and Charity Wakefield were great portraying Marianne as a headstrong, idealistic and emotional girl. But I felt the miniseries gave more "life" and drama to Marianne's character, especially when she was jilted by Willoughby.

Edward Ferrars: Both Hugh Grant and Dan Stevens were dashing and handsome. However, I felt both did not really bring out the character of Edward. Overall, Dan Stevens make a better Edward than Hugh Grant. Sorry Hugh...you're a little too "kayu"....

Colonel Brandon: ALAN RICKMAN's the man!!! Sexy! Both in voice and appearance! muahaha! Although I find it difficult to understand his accent compared to David Morrissey.

Mrs Dashwood: Well, I find the "mom" character were quite different in both series. The older movie portrays the mom as quite light-headed, temperamental and insolence at times but the new version portrays the mom as someone who keeps her head, have a quiet demeanor and calm. Haha! Both have their own advantages.

Mr. Palmer: Definitely HUGH LAURIE (of House MD fame in case you dunno). I didn't notice it was him as he was way thinner, has black hair and... younger. Haha! But he also played the sarcastic son-in-law of Mrs. Jennings.

Willoughby: I've got to say Dominic Cooper in the new version makes a better villain than the 1995 movie. Wah~ really...If you watch the new version, you'll definitely feel like giving him a nice punch that'll break his nose.

Lucy Steele: Daisy Haggard (2008) makes a very cunning and malicious Ms Steele and compared to the older version as the older version portrayed her as someone ditzy. The new version made her look calculative and how she ditched Edward when he was disinherited and married the brother instead.

Robert Ferrars: Definitely the old version. Richard Lumsden did a good job of making Robert "sissy-fied" and plain ridiculous.

Fanny Ferrars-Dashwood: Both version gave a great performance as the evil sister-in-law to the Dashwood girls.

Margaret Dashwood: The youngest daughter. Both played the character very well but I've gotta say the older version, played by Emilie Francois was "brattier" than the other version.

Alright. That's all for my analysis. I'll stop here or it'll never end. Allow me to sum up.

I love the older version as it gave a classic view of it but then the newer version on BBC would be far more entertaining and addictive as it has more drama and suspense to it as compared to the "gentlemanly" version of S&S. And I can't get enough of Hugh Laurie. Fantastic actor.

Jane Austen Cravings

2008-04-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

Winding down after exam could never been better than watching another BBC version of a Jane Austen's adaptation. If you haven't watched their version of Pride and Prejudice, I suggest strongly that you would do so right now on youtube as I personally think it is better than the movie itself! (Collin Farrel is the perfect Mr. Darcy that most girls would die for~)

Now I'm watching Sense and Sensibility. There are 2 version, the older one starring Hugh Grant, Kate Winslet, Emma Thompson and not forgetting Alan Rickman (of Prof. Snape fame in Harry Potter). I'm currently watching the newer version (fresh from the oven!) and I've got to say the timeline and music score appeals to me more than the older version as the latter version can get tedious after quite some time.

Jane Austen wrote quite a number of really great and romantic novels.

Caution: The English is quite deep but it gives it better effect and unlike sleazy romance novels off the rack in MPH, Jane Austen's stories are realistic, written accordingly with her time and the heroines portrayed in her books are pretty, intelligent and unafraid to embrace liberty (esp. in speaking her mind), which was quite unusual for women of her time to do so.

Recommended readings:

(1) Pride and Prejudice (but of course!!! I always loved the ending)
(2) Emma (I read it halfway but couldn't finish it as it's quite draggy in the first half. Reminds me of some boring EPL matches on TV)
(3) Sense and Sensibility (To be honest, haven't read it myself)

However, critics have always mentioned that Emma was Jane Austen's best work but the popular one would definitely fall into the hands of Mr. Darcy of P&P...Haha!

I'm suddenly recalling and getting addicted to all these classics as they were all so beautifully written. Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre (tragic giler the story...!) and also Wuthering Height (this wan lagi super tragic!!!) were also my favourites.

Somehow, I wish young girls (and boys too!) nowadays would read all of these classics and not come to hate them as it really is beautifully composed, rather than reading yet another gossip on Britney Spears in entertainment magazines. (No input at all....what's the point...)

Alright. No more lectures on classics. I wanna resume my S&S now.

My Endless Pursuit

New Life: Post Uni

Done~

Count Down

Travel Bug

B***h Fest

Road Woes

Half Naked? Definition Please...

Juggling Too Much On My Plate

Scary!

Vivid Dream

Last Day!

I Wanna Watch!!!!!!!!!

Sakit Gigi

Sleeping Woes

Exam...Porke?!

Wedding Bells

A Glimpse of Heaven

Hallelujah Hillsong

Do I Really Need to Attend Church?

Spooks

Inspiring Songs

Does Anybody Hear Her - Casting Crowns

Who Am I - Casting Crowns

Hooray...hooray! It's a Hollie, hollie Day!

Sungha Jung Playing Guitar-With or Without You

Justice, Where Art Thou?

Remembering The Forgotten

Racism: Who Decides Who Are The Supremes?

System Down...

Road to Recovery

On The Edge...

スガシカオ コノユビトマレ

Kichigai!

Gogo no Parade - Suga Shikao

スガ シカオ/ NOBODY KNOWS PV

TGI Chaos

You'll Be In My Heart

Dreams & Reality

Punked!

Sugoi!

Suga Shikao - Kiseki

I'm So Dead

A Week Now...

Sameshi to Tanoshi

Of Maze & Snow

Cradle Mountain

Tazmazia in Lower Crackpot

Hidoi!

Apple Story: Part 2

Best!

Encounters

Canberra trip

No longer Depress!

1 Apple = RM360

Travelling light...

Richmond

FAT

Pictures

Beauty and the Beast

Cold...

I'm Here

Anticipation

Last Minute...

Tsukareta!

Clay Aiken - Measure of a Man

Measure of a Man

I Will Be Here

I will be here - Steven Curtis Chapman

My Prayer

Interviews

Clay Aiken - Prime Time (Interview) Pt2

Clay Aiken - Prime Time (Interview) Pt1

Clay-nation?

Clay Aiken A Thousand Days

Clay Aiken-Invisible

Home Sweet Home~

Faster!!

Sad~

Rumours

スガシカオ　コノユビトマレ

スガシカオ/ NOBODY KNOWS PV